The Mind of Blu

Gone.

It's over and he's lost
If you haven't realized he's not the boss
I can't keep going what is the cost
Is it all my fault am I the reason?

My thoughts just keep pounding in my head
I feel so bad I feel like I'd be better off dead
Last thing I want to see is red
Or seeing that light while laying in bed

I'm struggling to get up now
And I can't keep getting up because I feel like I'll drown
I can't get up my thoughts my life is keeping me down
On the outside I will smile on the inside is a frown

I can see I can no longer cry out
My body is tired and I cry everyday on the inside I'm living in my own drought
I'm tired of sitting here I don't want to pout
There's nothing here for me people will have to live without

I can't see happiness anymore
I just lost all hope to walk through the door
Because I can't stop hitting the floor
I begin to scream but no one can hear me roar

HELP!!!!! I can yell all day
But in everyone's eyes there's nothing to say
It's all jokes cuz I'm known just to play
I'm scared and all I can do is sit and say Okay

Heart pounding slowly it's going to stop
To the point he's running and he just drops
You can try to get him up it won't work
Death has been there waiting behind the corner lurks

I....Can't
I....
I lost myself in my own thoughts
I lost who I was
Now I'm dead

-SinFantasy