The Mind of Blu

Have You Ever.

You ever fall so hard
Ever care so much it hurt
You try to delete your old card
No matter what you do leaves you in the dirt

Ever hide your feelings so they can't see
Ever try your luck knowing it'll never work
Hoping they see you as you them instead leaving you be
They begins to see who you were and try to lurk

You ever care so much that every time you fuck up
You get thoughts of taking your life
The mind clouds you get angry at yourself that all you do is gulp
Think to the future "could've been my wife"

Ever wish you could cry but no tear drops
You watch yourself break down over and over
It becomes a trends until your heart stops
Rather just get hit with a rover

You ever wish you could close your eyes and it'll all be fine
Having all doubt knowing it won't happen
Instead in reality you're crying and drinking wine
Can't fly because your wings are tired of flapping

You would've made it to your spot
The you stabbed yourself in the back
Now sitting in mind isolation till your heart rot
While you just sit your self up to die on the rack

They all stare as you lose your mind
While you try to sit and lie say you're alright
While you still chasing yourself from behind
You'll be running in the dark cuz you can't find the light

You ever open your eyes see it was a dream
Put your head in the pillow and scream
Thank God it was a dream nothing more
Calling them up saying i won't ever leave your side you my baby and i love you that comes from the core

-Sin Fanatsy