My Dark Past [Completed]

Chapter One: New Home

I help my family as we help the moving truck to unload our boxes and furniture, we've moved away from our home in West Virginia to Panem, I haven't had the best past and it has mentally left me wounded which isn't good for my mental health at all or so that's what I was told by my doctors before they prescribed me all of these meds to take that'll decrease my nightmares, anxiety, panic attacks and depression but my health isn't improving neither is it getting worse which I expected because I'm too damaged to be fixed. I unpack my things in my new room with a sigh, how can I move on when I have nightmares about it every night? How can I move on when I have panic attacks every time I feel scared that he's somewhere around to get me? I can't.... it's impossible because like I said, I'm too damaged, no matter how much help I get I can't get fixed.

After I've got my bed at least done I decide to go downstairs where I hear talking and laughing, I walk into the dining room where a family is, quite a small family but they look really happy, what I notice is the most attractive boy my age I've ever seen, ocean blue eyes, ashy blonde hair, strong build.... I'm interrupted by my dad's voice

"Ah! Katniss! You're here, these are our new neighbours. Susan and Charlie Mellark, and their twin son and daughter Peeta and Madge" my dad introduced

"This is my daughter Katniss who I was talking about" he chuckles, I give a shy wave and then look down at my shoes, dad notes to them that I'm extremely shy which they understand, I'm surprised when Madge comes up to me

"Hey Katniss! I'm Madge obviously, so do you know what school you'll be starting at yet?" She asks

"Mockingjay High School" I mumble

"So is Peeta and I! This'll be so awesome! You can meet all of our friends!" Madge squeals, this girl is extremely bubbly and talks a lot....

"I'm sorry, I'm talking too much aren't I?" Madge groans

"Its okay, I'm fine with it" I sigh not really caring how much she's talking, I catch Peeta as he looks at me from where he's sitting at the table and I don't know what to think other than it's like he was built by the gods above but I don't even want to think about getting involved into a relationship because that is the last thing that I want to do.

Peeta's POV

I'm in love.

Katniss is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my life, the problem is that I'm too shy to talk to her, I'm not like Madge who can talk to anyone without being nervous but I wish I could because if I could I'd be over there talking to Katniss but I can't because I'm too chicken. We leave the new Everdeen house about an hour later and all I can do is talk to Madge about how beautiful Katniss is

"Why don't you start talking to her? You know once you start talking to her she could start falling for you instantly, you're a good talker when you talk, Peeta" Madge says as she watches me play Call Of Duty 4

"Madge.... I'm that guy who says stupid things when I talk to the girl I like, I wouldn't want her thinking I'm a weirdo" I reply

"I know but you can't let your mind take over to what your heart wants"

Katniss's POV

I sigh as my family and I eat our dinner at the table, my parents discuss at how lovely people the Mellarks were but I don't pay attention, I just play with my meatloaf with a sigh. I'm starting at my new school tomorrow and I'm terrified, I haven't gotten the chance to look around and meet the people who live her but I know that it's better than West Virginia, thinking about West Virginia makes me lose my appetite and so I excuse myself from the table so I can go upstairs to my room. When I do I can see that across from my room I can see a masculine figure behind the blinds from a room at the Mellark house, I blush when I realise that mine and Peeta's room windows are across from each other's and so I quickly shut my own white blinds hoping that he didn't see which he most likely didn't...

"Calm down Katniss, just calm yourself.... he's just a boy, he's just a crush. You'll get over it" I tell myself but I don't believe it, not one bit.

I play the Sims on my laptop to pass the time or till I grow tired, I really don't want to fall asleep tonight because if I do then I know that my nightmares will be there as soon as I shut my eyes but I always get tired and I always fall asleep then I have the same nightmare I've been having for two years now. It's been two years since my dad's best friend touched me.... since that horrible night of my life, soon I feel my eyes close and I regret it because my nightmare begins

I'm so excited because my dad's best friend Robert is coming over with his daughter Marie who couldn't make it to my sixteenth birthday yesterday. When he gets here Marie isn't with him, he tells me that she got sick and couldn't come over, I understood but I felt something was different but I thought nothing of it and so I shrugged and went to my room, it's a bit later till I go back downstairs, I go look around put my parents are no where to be found and so confused I look into the lounge room when I see Robert sitting in my dad's brown leather chair sipping my dad's whiskey

"Oh hi Rob. Do you know where my family is?" I ask him

"They've gone to Primrose's school play, I told them you were out with friends when I was 'leaving'" he replies as he dips his hands down his pants and I freeze

"You make me think of you in naughty ways Kitty Kat. I think of you when I touch myself" he groans and I feel my heart beat racing, scared for my life

"I-I wha—"

"Strip" he evilly smirks

"What?! No! I'm telling my dad you creep"

"Strip! Or else I'll force you and you wouldn't want that" he yells and I wince

"I-I don't want to" I whimper

"See it like this then, if you don't, I'll fuck your little sisters brains out, you know I will" he growls and so for the safety of my sister I take off my clothes so I'm just in my underwear, he grins and takes photos as he starts jerking himself a few times

"My god you're one piece of work, take off your bra" he smirks

"Please Robert..." I tear up, he then angrily walks over and rips it off causing tears to pour down my face, he pulls me over to him from where he was sitting, he sits back down and pulls this thing out

"Touch it. I don't want you not doing it or I do this to your sister" he growls and so I do what I'm told as my tears fall, I cry out when he forces me to my knees

"Now suck me off you little slut" he groans and shoves himself in my mouth, he thrusts him self in and out but he can tell I won't suck it

"Naughty little Kitty Kat, I'm going to have to punish you" he says, he takes off my underwear and sticks three fingers in me causing pain to shoot up in my and I keep crying as he continues to thrust his fingers in and out of me, when he stops I see that his fingers have blood on them

"Now, come sit on daddy's lap" he says and I shake my head, his eyes grow angry as I defy him, he pulls out a condom and rolls it on himself, he tackles me to the ground but no matter how much I fought he was much stronger.... and that's when he forced himself inside me, it hurt a lot and I wished that I was dead but I wasn't, it felt like forever before he was done then he touched me for longer as I just lay there stiff as can be wishing that I hadn't stayed in my room, Robert rapes me again and it hurt even more, what snaps me into reality is the lights that shine through the lights as my family comes home

"Don't you mention a fucking word or I'll come back and do this again" he growls, after he cleans up he carries me to my room then kisses my neck

"I had a great time Kitty Kat. Can't wait for next time" he whispers, after he leaves undetected I limp all the way to the shower and cry, I cry because the next time he done it he wasn't alone and it was filmed, him and his friends each had their goes on me and he even used his own daughter as a sex toy.

So there you go.... the reason on why Katniss is so.... damaged, this is kind of my first story with this kind of thing happening, this book is just to show what this sort of thing can do to someone but also how other people can help, I hope you all enjoy this story.