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Chapter 24

   My mind was allll over the place. Dealing with this pregnancy and Kris death, too much for me to handle. I'm still on the fence about what I should do as far as this pregnancy. I know terminating it is the right and the best thing to do. I just don't know if I have the courage to do it. I know I need to decide, fast. I went to the doctor just to see how far along I was. I don't think im too far to where I can't terminate it. Well, im hoping im not too far. I'm glad my doctor's office accept walk-ins. While I was sitting in the waiting room, King texted. "im sorry for the way I reacted earlier. It just upset me that you're talking about killing my child. I know getting you pregnant on purpose was wrong. I didn't know what else I could do to have you to myself. I really do love you Kaydence. I wish we could talk more about this in person before you decide what to do". I really don't want to hurt King, but I don't want to hurt Chance either. The doctor will see you now, the nurse said.

Congratulations, you're 11 weeks pregnant. 11? Yes, the doctor said. In my head, I was quickly trying to do the math. I must have gotten pregnant like the third time King and I fucked. Shit, im hoping I did the math right. If my math is off, I could be pregnant by Talen. Hell, could be pregnant by Kris too. The last time I was with Kris, we fucked in his truck. We didn't use nothing, I tried to hop off before he could nut in me. That's when Chance noticed nut on my shirt. FUCK! How I get myself in this position? How long do I have before I can't terminate it? You have 7 weeks, maybe less. If that's something you're considering, you might want to schedule an appointment soon. Here is the number for a place that could get you in pretty quick. Thank you doctor! Yeah, I have to decide SOON. Just knowing I could be pregnant by King, Talen, or Kris making this harder than it already is. I haven't slept with Talen since before our trip to the resort. I slept with King like 5, 6 times since then. I slept with Kris that one time when we came back. Yeah, I might as well forget about my marriage. Just sitting here knowing im not sure who im pregnant by was terrifying me even more. I didn't want to give it no more thought. I immediately called the abortion clinic and made an appointment. When I made the appointment, they gave me a heads up. If I do it, ill have to miss work for at least a week to recover. I'm not sure how im going to pull that off without Chance noticing. I'll have to think of something before my appointment. I know King is going to be crushed, but I have to do what's best for me. My appointment is tomorrow at 9am. I need to pretend like im getting sick now, so it'll be believable.

After leaving the doctor, I went straight home. Baby, what you doing here? I wasn't feeling too well, so I came home. Honest, where you been? Girl, Chance didn't tell you? No, tell me what? My job sent me out of town to finish an assignment. I just got back last night. Aw, he didn't tell me. I saw the old detective that worked at your station was found dead, Chance said. Yeah, I saw it on the news too. I'm sorry to hear that, I know how close y'all were. We weren't that close, we just worked on a few cases together. Aw, I thought y'all were close. We worked a few cases together, his family came to the station functions, and that's about it. I know it's going to be difficult to work his case. I'm not working his case, I said. Oh, I thought you might want to work it. It's too close to home for me, ill leave it to somebody else. I'm going to lay down, I said. She ok? Yeah, work been a little rough lately. So, have you confronted her about cheating? Shhh! You been knowing all this time and you still haven't said nothing? It's all apart of my plan, Chance said. What plan is that? I can't tell you right now. It sounds like you letting her get away with it, Honest said. I'm not letting her get away with nothing. I'm just picking the right time before I say something. A lot been going on with work and she been stressed. I don't want to add to the stress. You such a sucker, Honest said. I'm just waiting for things to die-down at work first. You always do that, Honest said. Do what? You always come up with an excuse, put things off, and then you never do it. You just going to let her get away with it. Let me worry about my marriage.

You feeling better, Chance asked? Not really, I said while sitting up. Everything becoming too much for me. Work? Yeah, the X killer just added his 6th body to the list. We still don't have nothing on who this person is or if it's even one person. We have no type of evidence, no trace, no nothing. I don't think im cut out for this, I said. Take some time off, you too stressed right now. That doesn't sound like a bad idea. I'm sure you got more vacation time saved up. Yeah, think I got like a week left. Well, take that week off and rest. I'm sure you just need to take a step back from the case, reset, and try again. Think I might just do that, I said. The timing was perfect considering the fact my appointment in the morning. I can get the abortion while Chance is at work, come home, and recover. Him suggesting I take a break from work was a brilliant idea. I do need to take a step back from work, refocus, and try again. I feel like we are overlooking so many possible clues. For a week straight im going to rest and relax. How about a foot rub? I would like that, I said. Why you didn't tell me Honest was out of town? It really slipped my mind. Hell, I enjoyed her being gone. Damn, I said while laughing. I enjoyed not having her pop up over here or calling me crying about Talen. What about him? They doing this back and forth chase game. I'm tied of hearing about it really. Why they never hooked up? He was in love with somebody, but she didn't want him or something like that. I told her just let it go and move on. I never knew she liked him like that, I said. I always thought he wasn't a good fit for her, Chance said. Why? He just seems like a shady, disloyal dude. I never got that vibe from him, I said. I never knew Talen was in love with me, he never said it. We agreed that it was strictly sex between us. Never thought he'll catch feelings or even fall in love with me like that.

You at work? No, what's up ma? Aw, I wanted you to come over. For? Damn, I can't spend time with my child? I'll be there in a little bit. Damn, I shouldn't have agreed to that. She wants you to come over? Yeah, I already know what it's about. What? My dad's funeral, she wants me to go. I think you should, Chance said. I don't think it's a good idea. He hasn't been there for us nor his family. Why should I be there for him? I understand, it'll be awkward for everybody. Let me get out of here, I won't be there too long. I'll have a nice bath waiting for you, Chance said. I want to tell my mom about the pregnancy, but I know she'll lose it. Hate I keep secrets from her. I know she's going to kill me if I tell her I been cheating with 3 different men. I can either tell her about the pregnancy or tell her about the abortion. Either way, she's going to be pissed and hurt.

You don't look so good, my mom said. Yeah, not feeling too good today. I knew it, you pregnant. I couldn't even hide the guilt on my face. Yes, im 11 weeks. Yay! I'm not keeping it, I said. The second that left my lips, my mom stopped hugging me. What you mean you're not keeping it? The timing just ain't right ma. So, Chance is ok with you not keeping it? He doesn't know im pregnant. Wait, what? I haven't told him yet. Let me get this straight, my mom said. You plan on getting rid of this baby without telling your husband you're pregnant? Yeah, that's the plan. Kaydence, what's really going on? I'm not pregnant by Chance. My mom's mouth dropped when I said that. You're not pregnant by Chance? No, im not. Who you pregnant by? I'm still trying to figure that out. Ok, wait one got damn minute. Let me explain, I said. Yes, please do. I cheated on Chance quite a few times with 3 different people. Kaydence, what the hell? I did NOT raise you like this. I know ma, I know. What were you thinking? I wanted to try something different, I wanted to take a risk, and I wanted to do something ive never done before. Sooo, you had to fuck 3 different men for that? Ma? Don't ma me. I can't believe you cheated on your husband with 3 different men and you got pregnant. On top of all of that, you don't know who you pregnant by. That's why im not keeping it. That's not the answer to all of this and it's damn sure not going to fix none of it. It's the best option I have right now. Orrr, you can tell your husband the truth. That's the best option to all of this. I can't face that right now. I raised you much better than this and you know that. I know ma. It's been weighing heavy on me since I found out. Ma, you cannot tell Chance or anybody else. I'm not about to be the fourth person in y'all marriage. Kaydence, you need to fix this. I plan on doing that. Does anybody know you're pregnant? Yes, one of guys know. He was trying to get me pregnant on purpose. Why? He figured if he got me pregnant, Chance would leave me, and he can have me to his self. Damn, what kind of man do shit like that? A man that apparently loves me. You done told me a little too much today child. I just hope you've learned your lesson from all of this and you do the right thing. I most definitely learned my lesson ma and im going to do that right thing.