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Chapter 41

Today was King's funeral, I wasn't prepared for this day at all. It seems like this week flew by pretty quick. Since meeting his mom, we've did what we said we was going to do. We kept in touch and we talk every day. Every day she seems like she is getting stronger. We try to laugh a lot of times to keep from always crying on the phone. She asked if I would ride in the limo with her. I know King loves the fact we're getting close, I know he'll want me to be there for her. We made a pact that today will be the only day we break down and cry. After today, no more tears. King always told his mom when it's his time to leave this world, he didn't want her to be one of those mom's that cry every 2 minutes. The service was beautiful! So many people came out to see him be put to rest. His mom and I agreed to a closed casket. Neither one of us could handle seeing him lying there so lifeless. We stayed at the grave for a good 2 hours. Laughing, sharing out last words with King. I have something for you, Evelyn said.

She handed me this black box. I opened it and it was a beautiful half of a heart necklace. Wow, this is beautiful. Aiden picked it out a few weeks ago. He left it at my house, he didn't want you to stumble across it at his house. When I made the finale arrangements for his funeral, I gave the morgue half of the necklace. I made sure that Aiden wore his half. I know the feeling between y'all was mutual, but y'all couldn't explore how y'all wanted to. So, I wanted to make sure that y'all hearts could at least be together in some kind of form. Giving you the necklace now seemed like the best opportunity. Awww, I teared up a little. No, we said we wasn't going to do all of that. It tears of joy, I had no idea he got this. I always wanted my son to be happy and I still do. I want him to be in heaven with a smile on his face and love in his heart. Thank you for giving me this, ill cherish this forever. You're welcome sweetie! I hate I couldn't have you has a daughter-in-law, but you will forever hold that title in my heart. See, you making me cry. Just seeing how Evelyn welcomed me with open arms, made me hate I couldn't meet her sooner. She knows im married, but she still wants that relationship with me. It feels awesome that im building this connection with this woman. Especially knowing, it could possibly be my fault her son is dead. I'm going to leave that alone for now.

After leaving the gravesite, I stopped by my mom's for a second. She wanted me to come over, have lunch with her. I planned on going to lunch with Evelyn, but I have been spending a lot of time with her lately. I don't want my mom to feel some type of way about it. Hey, you look beautiful! Thank you, just coming from King's funeral. How was it? Painful, but his mom and I got through. She gave me this lovely necklace, I said while showing my mom the necklace. This is beautiful! King got it a couple of weeks ago. His mom been holding on to it. She felt the time was right for me to have it. She gave his half to the morgue so that he could hear his half in heaven. Awww, that is beautiful. Even tho we couldn't be together like that, she still wanted our hearts to be together in some type of way. It makes sense, my mom said. Y'all been spending a lot of time together. Yeah, she's amazing! I just want to be there for her since she doesn't have anybody. What about Chance? I mean, he did lose his sister before she lost her son. I know, im just not feeling Chance too much right now. I'm still on the fact he didn't tell me that he couldn't have kids. Throughout our entire marriage, I thought a baby was something we were going to have eventually. He made all these empty promises that he couldn't fulfill. That's something I just can't overlook that easily. What about him tho?

You cheated and got pregnant by another man. That's something that not easy to overlook either, but at least he's willing to try. I didn't give him false hope tho ma. I admitted to cheating, I told him everything. Like, what more do I have to do? I've confessed, ive apologized, ive done everything I felt like I needed to do to make things right. When I confessed, he should have confessed as well. He waited weeks to tell me his little secret. You waited some time too Kaydence. You have to be fair on both sides. You can't point the finger at him, just like he can't point the finger at you. Both of y'all kept secrets from each other within the marriage. Both of y'all are to blame for the disconnect that is happening right now. At this point, I don't care about the disconnect. He killed somebody that I actually loved. I was in love with Aiden King Tucker. As much as I tried to fight it and deny it, I still loved him. I wasn't ready to walk away from my marriage. At the same time, I wasn't ready to walk away from King either. What I felt for him was real, like what he felt for me was real. He was absolutely right when he said I was afraid to step outside of my fantasy. I was afraid to walk away from what I had built with Chance. I knew what I shared with King was real. Not saying what I share with Chance isn't. I felt something different when I was with King. Like the way we kissed was different, the way we looked at each other was different, and the way we made love was different. I wanted to fix my marriage, I truly did. The love I had for King was so strong, that I couldn't focus on fixing my marriage. A part of me didn't want Chance to leave me, the other part was curious. Curious about what? What my life would really be if I would have picked King over Chance. If Chance would have left, I would have started over with King. That would have been our opportunity to actually be together and not feel bad about it. If I would have choose him, he would be alive right now. It felt good finally admitting and confessing my love for King. Yeah, it would have mattered if I would have told him when I had the chance. It still feels good to get it off my chest finally. While talking to my mom, I get a phone call from my accountant.