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ILYBHE :-) part 15

Super idle just reminded some of my clients about their investment dues. Perfect time for an update :-)

Jan Erick's POV

     I was fixing my table and about to leave when I heard heavy knocks on my office's door.

     "Come in please." oh. I was a bit shocked when dad appeared from behind the door. His face expressionless.

     "Hi dad. Who's with you? I thought you're not coming anytime soon? Napasyal kayo? Where's mom?" Said me while welcome-hugging my father and waiting for his response. Sudden change in his expression made my heart skip a bit while waiting for his response.

     "Nandyan siya sa kotse sa baba with your tita Carol, sasamahan namin for her monthly check up at St.Lukes, wala kasi ang pinsan mong si Jomel, nasa Hongkong next week pa ang uwi."

     "Oh okay. So how is she? Is she recovering fast?" I said while searching inside my head if what im thinking about my dad's reason for coming over was same dun sa kinatatakutan ko.

     " Oh yeah, her Insurance shouldered everything. Glad she obtained that one good policy kundi isa na rin siya sa qualifiers ng sick and broke club but anyway that's not the subject of the matter why I bothered to climb up here."

     Biglang naging matigas ang expression ni daddy. Yung fatherly authority niya kapag pinapasunod niya kami nung maliliit pa kaming magkakapatid, nandun na naman. Matagal ko na iyung hindi nakikita. Almost two decades na yata. I honestly got nervous and seriously shocked when he slapped in my face some pictures of me and Cho kissing which he took out from his deep jeans pocket.

     "Where did you get these photos dad?!!!" I'm nearly out of words. Ngayon lang ulit ako nakadama ng ganitong kaba. Sanay ako na ang mga tao ko ang nasisilo sa akin. but these very moment is quite different. Para akong sinisilihang pugo. Inisip ko na lang si Cho para lumakas ang loob ko na harapin ang aking ama.

     "Bullshit!!! Since when have you become a freaking faggot Jan Erick?!!! This is the biggest disgrace you have ever brought to my family!!! Sino ang baklang kaharutan mo? Sabihin mo sa akin kung sino ang nagturo ng kabaklaan sa iyo?!!! Taga saan siya? Papatayin ko ang taong iyun!!! I'll crush his bones into pieces until he's nothing but a dust tutal isa naman siyang alikabok at ikaw?!!! Bakit hinayaan mo ang sarili mong maging ganyan ka? Nasan na ang kahihiyan mo!!!!!!" Halos mabingi ako sa lakas ng sigaw ni daddy. I was speechless. I couldn't find a word to answer him. He grabbed me by my shirt and closely dropped his last warning to me.

     "Hiwalayan mo ang baklang iyon at humanap ka ng matinong babae,kung hindi,kalimutan mo nang may pamilya ka!!!"

     He did not let me burst out a single word. Umalis na kaagad si daddy. Para akong nauupos na kandila. I know this will come. My parents are not bad. My mom and dad they have gay friends and relatives. It's just that masyadong mataas lang talaga ang naging expectation nila sa akin.

     "Hayyy. Problema na naman. I cannot give up Cho just like that but I don't wanna lose my family." bulong ko sa aking sarili.

     Ano kayang gagawin ko? Sino kaya ang nagbigay ng pictures namin ni Cho kay Daddy? May kumuha pala nung naghahalikan kami? pero sino? Sabagay kung malaman ko man,wala na ring kwenta. Kahit patayin ko pa ang taong yun. O khit hindi niya ginawa iyun, malalaman at malalaman pa din ng family ko. Gulong gulo ang aking utak nang bigla na namang bumukas ang pinto nang opisina ko at iniluwa si Emjhay.

     "Sir, magpapaalam lang sana ako. mauna na po ako sa inyo. Bye si-"

    "Emjhay! Can I ask you something? May kinalaman ka ba sa mga pictures na dala ni daddy? I mean the pictures of me and Cho while we were kissing?" bigla ang pag register ng guilt sa mukha ni Emjhay but he still tried hard to conceal it.

     " Wala po sir ha. Wala po akong kinalaman doon."

     "Oh okay. Alam mo Emjhay, it wouldn't matter na kung may kinalaman ka ba o wala sa bagay na yun. But I just want you to know na alam kong matagal ka nang patay na patay sa akin and to add alam ko din na you're mad because you're jealous kay Cho kaya hindi mo siya kinakausap kayo nina Rednie at Michay. Ito lang ang tatandaan niyo, you set hands on my Cho, and you're dead!!! Is that clear?!!!"

     " Yeeee.. Yees sir. Opo sir.Pasenxa na po."

     "Okay pinapatawad na kita sa pagbibigay ng picture kay daddy, bute nga yun hindi ko na kailangan mag open up sa kanya. At least alam niya na. And one more thing. Try to change your attitude. Hindi ka naman pangit Emjhay eh. Sometimes lang natatalo ka ng insecurity and selfishness kaya siguro walang nagkaka gusto sa yo. Try to be better ha? ok now you may leave!!!"

     Halos hindi ako nakatulog magdamag kaiisip sa problema ko. Mabuti na lang hindi inabutan ni Daddy si Cho sa opisina kundi baka kung ano na ang ginawa niya dito. Poor Cho.

     I have to think of ways to address this problem. Alam ko reresbak pa si Daddy.. I have to warn Cho. Baka magkasalubong sila ni Dad sa Limay at kung anong gawin nito sa kanya.

    Nakaidlip ako sa kakaisip kay Cho at sa Daddy ko, hanggang panaginip dinalaw nila ako. Nagising ako nang madaling araw. Hindi pwedeng ganito. Kailangan may gawin ako.Kailangan ko nang kumilos mamaya. Its now or never. Its do or die T.T

I just received a badnews but that won't affect my passion for writing and living, really living. hehe. no matter how hard life may become, you should keep living it and facing it with positive spirit and drive. I choose positivity. Sana kayo rin :-)