Give Me a Chance

5

•Axel's POV•

"Bye guys!" I say, shutting my front door. I think that was the most fun I've had in a while. I forgot how funny Chance and Emmett are. I walk back into my room, and I sit on my bed. I grab my phone and I check to see if I have any missed messages from Alissa.

Alissa: Sorry, Axel! I got busy with... family stuff.. I'll come next time.

Axel: Oh okay, hope every thing is better soon.

I set my phone back down, waiting for a response. I stand up and grab my earbuds off my desk. I plug them into my phone and an old song I used to listen to called I was an island by Allison Weiss starts and I start quietly singing the lyrics.

I was an island,
Before you came along.
Put your boat in my sand,
Hand in my hand,
Your heart in my songs.

I was a fighter,
And I was so brave,
And I lowered my sword,
When you held me and swore,
You'd stay, stay, stay oh

I can't do this alone anymore
Cuz I'm no good on my own anymore
What did I do to deserve this?
What did you do to me?
Baby, come back
You know I don't want to be free

I was a rebel, but I had a cause
'Til you came to town
Pushed me around
And showed me what love was

I was a wolf, dear
Apart from the pack
But you answered my cry
In the dead of the night
And told me that you had my back, oh

I can't do this alone anymore
Cuz I'm no good on my own anymore
What did I do to deserve this?
What did you do to me?
Baby, come back
You know I don't want to be free

I can't do this alone anymore
Cuz I'm no good on my own anymore
What did I do to deserve this?
What did you do to me?
Baby, come back
You know I don't want to be free oh
Baby, come back
You know I don't want to be free
No, No, No
Baby come back
You know I don't want to be free

The song ends and I realize that I'm crying. I never listen to this song because it reminds me of Chance. I try not to think about all the good times Chance and I had together, but there is no point. I drop my phone and I sit on my bed, sobbing into my hands. If Chance were here he would hold me, and tell me that everything's okay. He'd pet my hair and kiss my forehead. I miss him. I miss him so much.

I miss how he always smelt like cinnamon, how he'd give me his over-sized sweaters to wear, which would always be really big on me, how he'd call me cute when I was feeling down, how he'd just shower me in kisses for no reason. I miss all of that, but I threw it all away.

I hear a knock on my door.
"C-Come in." I stammer in between sobs.
My door opens and I am met by my fathers face.
"Axel, what's wrong?" He asks.
I whimper. "I.. I... I-I.." Is all I could manage to say.
He comes over to my bad and sits down beside me. "Shhh. Shhh.. You need to focus on your breathing."
I nod and remember something that my mom told me when I was having a panic attack. Breath in for four, hold in for seven and breath out for eight. I catch my breath and I try to wipe the tears off of my face.
"What's wrong, Axel?" Dad asks again.
"I-I miss... Chance.." I mutter.
"Wasn't he here a little while ago?"
"Not like that.." I say.
He cocks an eyebrow. "What do you mean?"
I sigh, a lump growing in my throat. I'm going to have to tell him that I'm bisexual at some point. Might as well be now.
"I miss being his boyfriend." I say.
He doesn't say anything, but he opens and closes his mouth as if he was going to say anything.

"What."

•Alissa's POV•

I pace around my room, waiting for my mind to stop thinking about what happened, but there's no use. I grab a picture of my little brother Jacob and I, and I start crying. He didn't deserve to die. I did. He shouldn't have died, I should have been able to protect him, but I didn't. I need to do something to get my mind of off him. I grab my phone and I text Chance and ask him to come over to hangout. He responds almost instantly. I already have an idea of what we're gonna do.
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A/N: There you go! A double update!!!