Heaven or Hell?

Chapter Nine:

Tick tock. That is the only sound that fills the living room as well as Jack's soft snores. After eating our Chinese take out, we put on paranormal activity 1, 2 and 3. Yep, once we started watching the series we couldn't stop. But now with me being the only one awake in a dark room, I'm already regretting the decision. Although, I do take the time to focus on what Jack confessed to me earlier. I'm still highly confused on what he means, but he refuses to tell me anything else. What does he expect me to do, carry on as normal? Of course I'm not going to do that. Perhaps I can get someone to teach me boxing or even karate. At least then I will have some sort of self - defence if someone was to attack me. Heck, maybe he will teach me himself.

But what I don't understand is what Leo has to do with it? Leo left as his own decision, so surely he must of returned as a result of his own decision. Unless he felt the need to come back to protect me. But why? Ugh, life would be simple if boys just didn't exist.

But if boys didn't exist, then none of us would be able to reproduce. And I personally wouldn't ever regret being pregnant with Liam. Regret the age of pregnancy, yes. But regretting the pregnancy all together is a whole different scenario.

But why does Jack want to protect me? I mean he is my enemy or at least he was, because after what he confessed to me earlier. I believe there is more to him than what meets the eye. Perhaps Ms Coles was right. There is unfinished business between me and Jack and I intend to find out what exactly that business is. But in the meantime I think I might go to the only place in my house where I can really be myself. My music room.

This room doesn't have a lot,. All it really consists of is a computer for back up tracks as well as a piano and guitar, considering those are the only instruments I can play. Although, before I came in here I did make sure to place a blanket on Jack to prevent him from getting cold during the night. I know what your thinking, I'm getting soft. But hey the boy seemed like he was shivering. And I don't know why exactly but when he was inches apart from me earlier, I felt like the temperature in the room had dramatically risen. Why did I feel like that? I can't possibly like him, my heart belongs to Leo and only Leo. Even if we won't be getting together anytime soon, I certainly won't be dating in the mean time. I just haven't got room in my life for another heart break. Which is exactly why I begin to play my piano to my current favourite song. Run by Leona Lewis. I still find that creepy how Jack knew all that stuff about me, yet I hardly know anything about him. Perhaps tomorrow we could spend the day playing that twenty question game, or rather me asking him twenty questions considering it sounds like he pretty much knows everything about me already. However, as I drift into my own world whilst singing the song. I don't realise that Jack has woken up and is standing behind me in the door way.

"You know you really do have a beautiful voice" he says as I finish the lyrics, making me almost jump out of my skin.

"Thanks, I guess" I say but mainly not paying attention to his compliment as I realise I have been playing music throughout the whole night and its already nine in the morning. How did I not fall asleep? I don't even feel tired.

"So what do you want to do today?" He asks whilst handing me a cup of coffee, a coffee that is made exactly to my liking. Just how long has he been watching me?

"Shall we go over the script for this musical?" he suggests but I shake my head.

"Not yet, first of all I want to get to know you" I reply whilst walking past him and back into the living room. Where I find the blanket I placed on him last night, neatly folded on the arm of the chair.

"So what do you wanna know?" He asks curiously as he sits himself down opposite me.

"Everything. Like favourite colour, food, singer. Who you like or love at the moment. Your worst enemy, your ambition in life" I say, listing each feature on my fingers. Earning myself a deep chuckle from him, which funny enough makes my stomach tighten a bit. Similar to the way it does when Leo laughs.

"Well my favourite colour is red. My favourite food is ravioli. Singer would have to be Usher that man just has me hooked with DJ got us falling in love again" he honestly answers making me smile at the way he answers me with no hesitation. "As for enemy I would have to say Becky, I don't know why but your best friend and me just don't get along" he says sarcastically. Of course he knows why they don't get along, they're constantly at each others throats twenty four seven. However, all of a sudden Jack goes quiet as if he is listening for something.

"Jack? What's wrong?" I ask in a concerned tone. I even stand myself up and walk towards him so that I can sit myself down on my knees in front of him. Although, if anyone was to walk through my door now it would look like me and Jack were in a very intimidating position as I sit in between his legs with each hand on one of his knees.

"Nothing, what was the other questions?" He questions whilst shaking his head as if trying to clear his thoughts.

"Who do you love or like? And what is your ambition?" I ask.

"My ambition in life is too make my son proud" he says in a guilty low voice. So low that is was a struggle to actually understand what he said.

But once what he says registers in my mind, I am completely gob smacked. He has a son?

"Son? I'm sorry what do you mean?" I ask sounding completely stupid.

"Yes I have a son just like you. He too is dead and he is buried right next to your son" he answers. So that is how he knew about Liam. But wait the boy buried next to my son is called Caden Platt. He doesn't have the sure name Slater.

"He has his mother's last name, she died as well during child birth. Remember Jennifer Platt?" He asks looking me dead in the eye. Jennifer Platt? The name doesn't exactly ring a bell, but I agree nevertheless.

"They were both buried a couple of months after Liam died. In fact your son would of been two months older than mine if he lived" Jack says with a small genuine smile. A smile that has me cloning the exact same one. Finally, someone who understands my pain and grief.

"I'm sorry for your losses" I say with complete sorrow in my voice.

"It's fine, and in answer to your last question I did love Jennifer. And it has taken me months to love again. I still love her, but there is also this girl in school who reminds me of her. The way she stays out of the crowd and isn't afraid to stick up for herself. She is just like Jennifer, not to mention just as beautiful" he answers looking at me with such emotion in his eyes, it is making me fear his answer.

"Who is this girl?" I manage to choke out, trying my best not to cry at his touching words.

But I don't get an answer. Instead I find myself as well as him leaning in more and more as each second passes. Until finally just as our lips our a mere centimetre away from one another's he quietly whispers "You" and that's the last thing I register before his lips are on mine. Spreading a feeling throughout my body that is simply indescribable. Where before long I find Jack asking for entrance to explore my mouth as his tongue licks the bottom of my lower lip, where almost automatically I grant him entrance, just before I feel myself being lifted from the ground and onto his lap so that I am straddling him during our moment of complete and utter bliss.