Joshifer To The Rescue (a Joshifer fanfic)

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Chapter 16

"You fucking idiot!" I scream and hit myself in the head. I sit down on the couch and put my head in my hand. "You're so stupid," I keep telling myself. Why did I tell Josh to come over? I storm to my kitchen and quickly find a pair of scissors. I hold in my cries of pain as the scissors dig into my skin. My back slides down the counter and I fall to the floor. I start sobbing and eventually race to the shower. I had only a half hour until Josh was here and I was getting nervous. I quickly scrubbed away the blood and washed my hair. I threw on a big sweatshirt and some capri jogging pants. I finished just in time to hear a knock at the door. My hand started shaking as I approached the door. I quickly pulled my hair into a bun and opened the door. Joh smiles and I let him in. "Hey Jen, how are you?" I give off a fake smile and say, "Fine. How are you?" He puts bags on the counter and turns to me. "Eh. Anyway, I brought beer and cookie dough ice cream, just as you asked." My hands were still shaking. I could swear I felt blood dripping on my arms. Josh looks to my shaking hands. "Are you okay Jen?" He steps toward but I walk back. "I'm fine, can we just talk?" He nods and we sit on the couch. His face turns very serious. "Jen, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean anything I did or said." My eyes welled up with tears. He takes his hands in mine, seizing the shaking. "I couldn't think of anyone but you." I felt his hands wander around a bit, drifting towards my wrists. I tried pulling away, but he was too strong. I then realized he was still talking, but I wasn't paying attention. "Well, are you going to say something?" I pause and think for a minute. I decide to take it easy. "Josh, you know I love you, but you can't take back what you did and said." He tugs on my hand a bit, opening on of my cuts. As the blood seeps through my sweatshirt and onto my hands I gasp and quickly pull away. "Oh my gosh, Jen, are you okay?" He pushes up the sleeves to my sweatshirt and sees all my cuts. I immediately burst into tears. Josh pulls me into a hug and I cry into his chest. "I couldn't take the stress and heartbreak, I'm sorry. I'm sorry," I just kept telling him I was sorry until he pulled away. "Hey, stop it. You have nothing to be sorry for. I don't care about anything except you getting batter and stopping this. Just promise you won't do that anymore." I nod and he wipes away my tears but they don't stop. "I promise,"  "Come on," He hauls me into his arms and carries me to bed. We get wrapped up in the blankets and eventually fall asleep. But we wake up around three and get drunk. But who cares! The bottles end up on the floor and we eat all the ice cream. That ends up on the floor too. We do make it back to the bed and pass out.

We wake up the next morning to pounding at the door. I ignored it and buried my head into Josh's bare chest. The door opens, I still don't pay attention. In comes Sam and Liam. "Get up lovebirds. You're late." I groan and get up, shaking Josh. "Josh, come on! We're already late!" I quickly pull off my sweatshirt, then realize Sam and Liam are still standing in the doorway. "Get out!" I yell and shut the door in their face. We quickly get dressed and run out the door. Jason was so pissed. "You know, you guys oversleep a lot." Sam hints and winks at me. I push him quickly and start laughing. I soon figure out we're doing the scenes at the Victor Village. I get in my clothes for the first scene then we start the scene. We run through lines and the scene is over soon. I quickly get into the clothes for the scene when Peeta slips on ice right before the kickoff to our victory tour. "Action!" He calls and we both come out of the doors. We both hug and then Josh slips on our fake ice. I fall on top of him. I try to continue but i'm laughing too hard. "I'm sorry! It's just too funny!" I shout and double over in laughter. "Maybe for you! I'm the one who has to fall." We start up the scene again and I finally do it right. After that me, Josh, Liam, Sam, and Jena were all sitting by the snack table, just chatting away. Then Jena speaks up. "Wait, I'm not a stalker, but I've heard rumors that you two can dance really well." She laughs and motions between me and Josh. "I don't know, can we dance?" We stand up and try to start ballroom dancing. But Sam and Jena wind up teaching us how to. Eventually I step on Josh's foot a few times. "I'm sorry! I suck at dancing!" I laugh and all three start looking behind me. They all step away from me and Sam murmurs, "In coming," Just as I turn around I'm knocked to the floor. I look up to see Ashely on top of me. "Oh my god! What are you doing here?" She avoids my question and starts hugging me. I look behind her to see my mothers sorrowful face. Josh goes over and starts talking to her. "Ashley," my mother calls, "I think you should tell her now."

I shut the door to my trailer and sit next to her on the bed. "So what's up?"

Tears start falling down her face. "Well, last week, I went to the doctor and it turns out, I have lung cancer." Her tears turn to loud sobs. "And I only have two weeks to live."