MY EX IS THE NEXT?[the bitter tale]

Out of Town

"What? Kylene, meron ka na bang ibang mahal?"
I rolled my eyes.
"Hindi ako katulad mo."
"Kylene, you're not answering my questions."
"Kailangan mo bang malaman?"
"Kylene!" He insisted
"Okay! Okay! Wala!"
He smiled. I hate him!
"I hate you, Timothy."
"Not for too long... Kylene."
How can he be that sure? I hate him. Inuulit ko, I hate him! He'll be the last man that I'll ever wish to be with!

Pumikit ako, and in an instant.. Nakatulog ako. Sa wakas.

Pagmulat ko ng mata ko, nasa dulo kami ng isang bangin. Makikita mo ang mga ilaw ng iba't-ibang city sa ilalim neto. That made me amazed.
"How is it?" Timothy entered the car.
"It was amazing!" I smiled at him, he smiled in return. Binawi ko yung ngiti ko. Bakit ko sya nginingitian? Nababaliw na ba ako?
"Namiss ko 'yang ngiti mo."
He said.
"Hindi ka namiss ng ngiti ko." I said bitterly.
"It's beautiful here right? I've been here at times."
I looked at him.
"With Jake?"
He frowned.. "Kai.."
"Answer me. You're not answering my question,Timothy."
I grinned at him. Knowing that this will remind him of the past.. When he cheated on me.
"Yes."

Nanahimik ako.. Para akong naging bato sa narinig ko. Alam ko namang si Jake 'yung kasama nya dito.. Ako naman 'yung nagtanong at humingi ng sagot.. Pero..
Pero bakit nasasaktan ako?

"Kylene..." Tears run down of my face. I can't believe here I am again...crying because of a god damn man.
"I can't really understand, Timothy. Deserve ko bang masaktan? Deserve ko bang masaktan ng paulit-ulit? Dahil sa parehong rason.. Dahil sa iisang lalaki? Dahil sayo?"
Inuntog ko ang ulo ko sa kotse.
"Ang tanga-tanga ko."
"Kylene,don't cry.. please.. I'm sorry."
I breathed out.
"Timothy,it hurts.. It still hurts."
Turo ko sa puso 'ko.
Dalawang taon na ang nakakalipas, hindi ko na mahal si Timothy.

My  feelings for him has already faded.. Pero masakit eh. Masakit pa din.

"Ang sakit sa ulo, sa puso.. Ang sakit maalala lahat ng ginawa mo! 'Yung panloloko mo.. 'Yung ako na nagpakatanga--YUNG DATING TAYO! TIMOTHY ANG SAKIT!"
He hugged me.
"Sobra na, ang sakit na."
Umaalingawngaw ang iyak ko sa buong lugar. Hindi ko mapigilan umiyak ng umiyak. Hanggang nakikita ko si Timothy nasasaktan ako.
"I promise,I'll never hurt you again."
"Umalis kana, iwanan mo na ako."
"I will, after I'd made everything right."
"IWANAN MO NA AKO!"
"AKALA MO BA IKAW LANG ANG NASAKTAN?"
He looked at me, itinapon nya yung salamin nya sa labas ng kotse.

"KYLENE IKAW LANG BA ANG MAY KARAPATANG UMIYAK SA GABI? KAI! HINDI MO ALAM 'KUNG GAANO KO PINAGSISIHAN LAHAT NG NAGAWA KO SAYO! KUNG GAANO AKO NANGHINAYANG DAHIL PINAKAWALAN KITA! ALAM MO BA KUNG GAANO AKO NASASAKTAN KAPAG NAKIKITA KITANG IBA NA?"

Umiiyak na din sya. Napatigil ako sa pag-iyak.
"Niloko mo ako." I said, gritting my teeth.
"I didn't intended to--."
"You didn't,but it happened."
"Kai! I was drunk!"
"Aminin mo nalang na mahihina kayong lalaki."
"Minahal kita ng totoo---."
"Sobra mo 'kong sinaktan."
"Kylene.."
Hinawakan nya ang mukha nya, he's still crying. I nodded.
"Thirty days right?" I ask
"What?" He asked back
"Pagkatapos nun lulubayan mo na ako?" I asked.
"Kylene.." His voice was rough,
"Answer me."
"Yes."
"Okay, I understand. Just promise to leave once that thirty day deal ends."
Tumingin ako sa labas ng bintana ng kotse nya.
"I'm sorry for making you a monster." His voice was shaking, it's giving me the goosebumps.

"Monster or not, it doesn't matter. You still hurt me."

Hinawakan nya ang mga kamay 'ko. Tinitigan ko sya.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" His tears are still falling down his face.
"I know I'm not in the place. I know I don't deserve. I know you cannot forgive me. I know you hate me. I know I've been a jerk. I know I've hurt you,and I am still hurting you. But do you still love me like the way I do to you?"
My eyes squinted.
"How do you expect me to believe you?"
He pulled my head and gently brushed his lips unto mine. It's a deep kiss.. While his tears run down his face. He was shaking. And I was.... I was nervous. May nararamdaman ako, and I don't wan't to continue this kiss anymore.

Itinulak ko sya.
"TIMOTHY!" He smiled at me as he start the engine of the car.
"Why the hell did you do that? Are you crazy?"
"I know you had fallen out of love with me, but your kiss is still the same. I know I can take you back as mine, before this thirty deal ends."
Hindi na ako nakapagpigil at sinabunutan sya.
"ARGGGGH! I HATE YOU! YOU THIEF!"
"I love you."
He winked. Kinurot ko sya sa tenga.
"Aray!"
"DON'T EVER SAY THAT AGAIN!"
"What?"
"That--I love you!"
"I love you too,Kylene."
Napatahimik nalang ako. I... This can't be happening.
"I can't fall inlove with you, please do not do this to me." I sighed.
"You can. 'Wag mong pigilan ang sarili mo. I promise to do it right this time."

Nagcheck in kami sa isang hotel. Syempre, katulad dati pinagtitinginan sya ng mga babae. Isang bed room ang ni-rent nya,na may dalawang kama.

He opened the room, I yawned.
"You're sleepy."
He said.
Humiga ako kagad sa unang kama na nakita 'ko. Color black 'yung hinihigaan 'ko, gothic style. Tapos yung kay Timothy color red.
"Obviously, nakakapagod ang araw na 'to." It's already 10 in the evening, and I wanna sleep.
I closed my eyes, trying to make a sleep. Noong naramdaman 'kong parang bumigat 'yung kama 'ko. I opened my eyes.
"What are you doing? Sleep."
I yawned again. Inaantok na talaga ako.
He smiled at me. "Hehe."
Heto nanaman sya. Feeling bata.
"What?"
"Tabi tayo."
"No."
"Please?"
"No."
"Sige na,Kai."
"No."
"I promise wala akong gagawin."
"Timothy,please let me sleep."
"I wanna sleep with you."
"No."
"Please."
"No."
"Please."
"Fine!"
Tinanggal nya ang jacket nya, living a sando behind. That biceps---
Kai!
Binuksan nya 'yung kumot at inilagay saming dalawa. I closed my eyes.
He locked me inside a hug.
"Timothy.."
I said, still closed eyes.
He kissed me. Lightly.
"Good night,Kylene."