"So, How was school?" Jacob asks.
"Fine," I reply too quickly, staring at the ground.
Why does it have to be such a far walk home from to school? This is so awkward.
"Are you okay?" He questions.
"Jacob," I sigh.
"What? What's the matter?" He queries.
"I can't do this right now, I'm sorry," I apologize, running into the house, leaving him behind.
I run up the stairs and into my room, shutting the door. Oh my god. I probably look and sound so dramatic right now, but I really can't do this right now. I really just can't. Do I seriously like him? Do I?
"Star? Star open up," Jacob calls, knocking on the door.
I ignore him and remain silent, not moving.
"I'm coming in," he states opening the door.
I look at him and then back at the floor. Oh god, I already have butterflies in my stomach. He walks over to me and sits next to me on the bed.
"Please tell me what's wrong," he gently says, rubbing a hand on my back.
"I, I," I stutter.
I just can't seem to get the words out.
"Come on, you know you can trust me," He consoles.
You got this Star. I take a deep breath and try to prepare myself. This could go in many different ways.
"Jacob, I think I like you. No, I know I like you. And it's really time consuming because I have to think about everything I do or say around you. I don't really know what to do because I'm certain you don't like me back and of course, my fucking luck I fall- scratch that, I like a fuck boy. I mean honestly, out of all people I have to like you, the hot fuck boy. It's not like it's a bad thing- what am I saying, it is. I don't mean you're bad, just your habits. I mean, why do you have to be so god damn cute? Like your rosy cheeks, and your really good hair- although I didn't really like it when you had your hair parted in the middle, it kind of look like curtains or windshield wipers. Oh! Maybe I should call you curtain head? Or no maybe- what am I saying. Anyways, I like you and I don't know what's happening but it's making me go crazy," I ramble, out of breath.
Was that much? Nah, not at all. Not at all. I look over at Jacob and see him sitting there.
"Sorry, I knew I shouldn't have said that," I mumble, getting up.
"Wait," he abruptly says.
In this moment, right now, I am the happiest I have ever been. He's stopping me! Which means that he feels the same way. Oh god oh god, are we going to be boyfriend and girlfriend? Or or maybe-
"You have something in your teeth."
Oh.
Ok.
"Yea," I reply blankly, giving him a sad smile and walking out of the room.
I blew it. I said how I feel and I blew it. This proves that I should just keep everything bottled up and sealed away. Because when I say how I feel, it goes wrong, always always always.
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"Hey Angelina," I smile."Hi," she smiles back.
"So, hows it going with Ethan?" I ask, wriggling my eyebrows up and down.
"I think okay, we have hung out a lot," she informs.
I nod and we continue walking.
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I think I'm in love with him (Jacob Sartorius Fan-Fic)
Fanficy'all just leave this is so cringey do not read it -StarLight and Jacob don't exactly get along well, she teases him, and he teases her, it's just how it goes. But what happens when she starts getting feelings for him. Or when two boys move next d...