Perfect Pair | Kenneth San Jose

Imperfect Pair

If you haven't known yet..

Imperfect Pair is finally out!

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In the mean time here is the first chapter ♡

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It's been a year..

A year since the love of my life left and taken a huge part of me with him.

He seemed happy without me though..

He was getting more famous over at the Philippines, he's even being rumored to be dating this girl..

AC Bonifacio.

While as for me?

I've never felt more alone in my life.

I still cry myself to sleep at night. Just missing his touch, his scent, his voice.. his smile.

Just everything about him.

Friends and family have been helping me nonstop to cope with my loss of him, but not even therapy helps.

How can you heal a cut that needs be sown?

I've completely fallen apart.

A smile? I didn't know what that was anymore. Yes I've seen it on peoples faces, but I have yet to see it on mine.

Dance? I have completely forgotten about it. Just like I have with singing.

School? I've been forced to be put into homeschooling. Why? Because I was too distraut to even step out of my room.

Everywhere I went reminded me of him.

Just being in my house made me even more depressed, which is why we had to move to a whole different part of town. My room reminded me too much of the times we would lay next to eachother and listen to eachothers heart beat. While every other room just reminded me of the horrendous memories I can never forget.

My brother, Gabe, graduated highschool a couple months after Kenneth had left. He has decided to not attend college and to just focus on dance.

He was close to finally opening up his own dance studio in Hollywood-- well collaboration actually.

With who you ask?

Sean,

Sean Lew.

My best friend.

Who is also my new next door neigbor.

Our families decided to move in next to eachother so that Sean and Serris could watch over me while Gabe and/ or my mom was at work. I felt like a charity case, honestly. I really did.

Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for them. Sean has never left my side since he left. However, sometimes I think it's only because he told him not to..

I know it's bad to think negative things like this about the person who has done nothing but try and fix you back up, but my mind has another mind of its own.

Sean has never given up on me.

He has taken me to every single one of my therapy sessions, made my bed, cooked me food and even sings me to sleep when he finds me crying.

He always tries to cheer me up and keeps me company whenever everyone was gone. He gives me hugs I don't ask for. He gives me forehead kisses that I sometimes never stay awake long enough to feel.

He was just always there.

But even with his arms wrapped around me, I still couldn't feel anything.

That's all I really ever felt like now.

Alone.

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Hope you guys like it! I can't wait to start this new journey with you guys! Love you all.

Always,
Almay.