If Only I Had The Words {Zalfie/Joella}

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If Only I had the Words: Chapter 2

-Zoe's POV- (In her dreams)

I awoke on a field, filled with daisies and sunflowers. The sun was blazing with gorgeous heat, I laid back and absorbed the heat. I stared down by body, I was wearing a floral dress and my hair was in a fishtail braid to the side. I stared around me, there was nothing but daisies and sunflowers, no home or shelter, it was just one massive field that would never end. I see a figure in the distance and I begin to squint my eyes to see who it is, it's Alfie, in a black tuxedo. Was he crying? I tried speaking but nothing came out. He kneeded down beside me and his brown eyes dazed into mine still no words came out my mouth. "I want you to wake up Zoe," he cried, I stared at him with confusion, I was awake wasn't I?

"I want you here Zoe, I fucking miss you" He growled, was I invisible or something? I wanted to scream I was right here but he couldn't see me. He was probably pranking me or something.

"Fuck Zoe! Wake up!" He growled again, was I dead or something? Was I some sort of angel and I had died? That's when it hit me- I was in a car accident but how did I end up here? Fuck, was I dead?

"I wish I could feel your pain" He whimpered, and kissed my hand tenderly. This is the most contact me and Alfie had, had in months and I missed it so much.

"I love you" He whispered and his tear fell onto my hand and with that I felt the power to speak again.

"I love you too" I replied but my voice sounded so weird it was almost croaky like I haven't spoken in months. Alfie looked at me and his eyes were wide but they soon came back to tears and with that he walked away and everything started burning and turning black. I looked around the flowers were vanishing, Alfie was gone and I was in the middle of a black place, which filled with fire and cracks. I tried screaming but nothing was coming out, creatures started crawling towards me slowly I jumped in fright and tried to back away but I couldn't there were wires wrapped around my wrists and feet. I closed my eyes to try and picture something but I couldn't when I opened my eyes I was still in the same place, a slight tear fell down my cheek, I needed help now.

I closed my eyes one more time, and thought of something that always manage to calm me down, Alfie and his picture came into my mind and calmed me down but then a squeaky noise went through my ears I moved my head but I couldn't open my eyes.

One of my eyes peeked opened and I was somewhere else, I looked and saw the one person I had to see.

"Alfie?"

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"Zoe, you're up! You're fucking up!" He exclaimed and pulled me into a tight hug. My head was pounding I pulled away and rubbed my temples.

"Does your head hurt?" He asked and I nodded, it was like the worst hangover you could ever get.

"I'll go get the doctor" He stormed out the door and I quickly checked around the room. Alfie must have been the only person staying here because there was one sports bag, was Courtney here too? I hope not. I scanned around me again, balloons saying get well soon and I'm sorry. I took a deep breath and looked at my hands they had pumps injected into me. How long was I out for? I gazed in front of me and the mirror hung up. I looked dreadful I was pale white and bruises covered my faced. There was a scratch on my bottom lip, splitting it open. I had a cast around my arm but thankfully that was the only place. There was a scratch above my eyebrow and one on my nose. A tear rolled down my cheek at the pain I was in. Then Alfie walked in with a nurse and I quickly wiped the tears away.

"Hello Zoe, How you feeling?" She asked, scribbling stuff on her clipboard.

"Fine" I managed to answer but it came out with a croak.

"Would you like some water?" I nodded and she poured some fresh water in a cup and handed it to me and I quickly drank it, the substance clearing up my throat.

"Do you feel any pains?"

"Just my head" I replied and rubbed the sore pain.

"Well that's completely normal, I'll just give you some painkillers and they should be gone in no time" She walked to the other side of the room and grabbed the pills from the cupboard and walked back to me and handed them to me. I quickly put the pills in my mouth and swallowed them, I was surprised it got down.

"I hope you feel better soon, I'll leave you two to catch up since he's been here this entire time"

"Thank you" Alfie replied, and she smiled and left the room. The awkward tension filling the room straight away.

"You didn't have to stay here with me" I whispered, not daring to make eye contact.

"What? And leave you here by yourself? Waking up and finding no-one there and feeling confused I'm not down for that" he said, a tear rolled down my cheek because he was right.

"What about your girlfriend? You left her home by herself?"

"I had to see if you were okay" He mumbled, and I looked up at the ceiling.

"It's been months, what's the point when it was obvious you hated me"

"Don't be stupid Zoe" He growled.

"I'm not being stupid when that's what happened!" I yelled, and his face dropped to frustration.

"Can we start again please?" He begged, his voice still telling me he was annoyed.

"Fine, but if you mess up I'm never speaking to you again" I pointed out and he nodded.

"Okay so how should we start?" He asked.

"How about you introduce yourself"

"Okay, my name is Alfie Deyes and I'm twenty years old"

"I'm Zoe Sugg and I'm twenty-three years old" I laughed and we shaked hands realising how ridiculous this was.

"So, what about you're love life?" I continued, I knew the answer but we had to start again. He shook his head and laughed.

"Well I'm sorry but I have a girlfriend, that's if you fancied me." He teased and my head fell back with laughter.

"Trust me, I would never and no I'm single" I answered and he nodded with a smirk on his face. My heart suddenly felt so warm because this was the most contact I've had in months.

"So, Zoe Sugg? Where you from?"

"Bath, you?"

"Yorkshire,"

"I could tell," I laughed and his head fell back with laughter as well.

"Where have you been Zoe? I missed you." He mumbled, and it gave me a flashback from my dream, seeing him crying there saying he missed me echoed through my head.

"I don't know, I haven't been myself lately," I replied honestly, I didn't know if I wanted to live back then because everyone shut me out especially Alfie and I had a massive crush on him then he got a girlfriend and everywhere I went they were kissing or hugging and all I could think was why can't that be me?

"I hope we get that old Zoe back," He whispered, and his eyes filled with concern.

"I don''t think that's going to happen," I whispered and stared at my thumbs hating the eye contact we were making.

"Why not?" He asked, and my head leaned up and I stared at him.

"Because I'm afraid."

A/N Chapter two!! Is Zoe afraid of her past or afraid she will fall for Alfie? Put in the comments on what you thinks going to happen!!

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