If Only I Had The Words {Zalfie/Joella}

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ZOES POV

Currently doing my makeup, awaiting for Jack's arrival. He should be here in about five minutes. I can already see him walking him, half smile on his face, wearing a blue button down shirt and a bouqet of flowers. But that what I was imagining last night when I was trying to fall asleep.

I checked my hair and makeup one last time, I felt insercure with the scars and faint bruises. Will he think I'm ugly? I sure felt ugly. Suddenly there was a knock at the door, making me jump and sticking the mirror under the blanket. "Come in!" I shouted in a nervous tone. The door opens to a smiling Jack, wearing a blue button down shirt holding roses in his hands. Just how I imagined, I thought.

"Hey Zo- wow." He breathed.

"What do I look bad?" I sighed, my insercuity hitting me right in the face. I should've seen it happening, I'm a fucking disgrace.

"No... beautiful actually." He breathed taking a seat next to me, that's what Alfie does.

"No need for lying right now Mr Harries!" I laughed, him chucking next to me. I missed that laughed, I miss him.

"Lying is a sin, which I will not commit."

"You say with good words."

"Shakespeare now?" He laughs.

"Anyway how you doing?" I asked, last time we saw each other I was crying in front of him and he felt no emotion.

"Well, I went to America- just a little break y'know? Should I ask you? Or will that be too much?" He said his cheeks flushing with red, and facing down.

"Sure you can ask me. I did nothing, the car crash was the biggest impact while you were gone." I confess, his eyes soon softing.

"I missed you Zoe... a lot." He whispers, taking my hand in his. His touch makes me feel numb, it's been so long.

"I missed you too, why did you leave?" I asked, turning the tables. I knew this was too soon to ask but I just had to, I couldn't stop.

"I needed a break Zoe, from everything. My mum was bailing on me so was Finn, I felt like no-one had my back, y'know? You were keeping your distance from me. I just had to get out of England and explore and when I was ready I would come back."

"If only you told me that back then, I would have supported you, cared for you and even helped you. I'm so sorry Jack, I really am." I whispered, my voice shakened. I kept my distance because I was so worked up over Alfie and Courtney that I didn't know what to do anymore.

"Don't be sorry Zoe, just be thankful that we are back where we started. Do you want to do that? Start over?"

"I'd love that." I whispered, my eyes becoming hot from the tears, which I didn't allow to escape.

"Have you been here alone?" He questions, should I lie or not? I'm not sure I should be lying right now.

"N-No." I stammer.

"Who's been looking after you?"

"Alfie, he's been by my side since the start." I should really thank Alfie, he's spent every minute worrying about me and I haven't had the time to say thank you.

"Don't you wish I was looking after you instead?"

"Alfie's my friend Jack, he looked after me and I'm thankful for that. Good to know I'm coming out the hospital tonight!" I exclaim, excitement clear in my voice.

"Well why don't you get some rest, yeah?" He suggests and I nod my head, would be good to get some rest. I rest my head into my pillow, instantly falling asleep with Jack's hand linked with mine.

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-ALFIE'S POV-

Staring at my watch it was '2:28' I wanted to get to Zoe on time and show her how much I care about her. I would stay there until noon and I would pack her bags and we would head back to my flat and we would have hot chocolate and watch movies. I can already picture it.

The clock was now on 29 so I got up, with one single rose in my hand and chocolates, ready for us to catch up... properly. I headed towards Zoe's, thankfully it was far.

I reached Zoe's room, silence, as usual and I entered the room without a knock. Not like she would be expecting anyone else. I walk in to a sleeping Zoe with her hand in... Jack's?! Why was he here? I thought he was in America with his girlfriend and now he's here with Zoe. Crap, it all makes sense now, Zoe wasn't getting jabs this morning she was meeting with Jack. Anger and jealousy boiled inside of me and I slammed the door throwing the flower and the chocolates to the floor. This was supposed to be special and it's not.

I storm out the hospital, proceeding to go home. I told the reciptionist to tell Zoe that I stopped by, hopefully she didn't get any ideas that I was angry and jealous. I hopped into the car, fisting my hand onto the steering wheel with anger. This always happens to me? I'm the one that get's hurt! I drive off out of the hospital, this is the last time, I hope, to be here. This place holds good and bad memories, which I will try and not remember... forever.

-ZOE'S POV-

I wake up to the sound of the door slamming, my eyes jolted open. Maybe it was the wind? Jack was fast asleep onto of our hands, my hand was numb. I stroked his cheekbone, his eyes fluttered open with a smile on his face.

"What time is it?" He asked, his voice all hoarse and deep.

"2:35, can we pack? I really wanna get out of here." I laugh, he sits strectching his arms out with exhaustion. He walked over to the other side of the room, picking up a bags... I think it was Alfie's. Alfie! Shit, I was suppose to meet him here at 2:30, was that him slamming the door? Don't think it would be. Jack begins to shove clothes in and my makeup bag, everything I need for example. I didn't take very much here, all I wore were these hospital clothes which showed my bum.

"Put these on." Jack mumbled throwing a black vest top and white shorts. I eyed the material up and down trying to remember wearing this somewhere but I can't. "I'll turn around." Jack sighed turning his back towards me. I took the horrible hospital clothes off chucking it to the ground in disgust and placed the vest top over my head, along with the shorts.

"You can turn around." I coughed he turned around with a crook smile on his face.

"I would be lying if I said you looked terrible because you're beautiful Zoe." He compliments a blush spreading across my cheek.

"Thanks." I whispered tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Now let's get out here, yeah?" He laughed opening the door to... roses and chocolates which have been ruined by being chucked at the floor. Reality finally hit me in the face... Alfie was here.

Author's note:

Ooo I'm currently writing the next chapter for this but it may take a while because I have exams next week help please :(

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