If Only I Had The Words {Zalfie/Joella}

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ZOES POV

It felt weird walking back into my flat, I know its only been two days but it just seems so weird. And empty.

I place my bag on the floor before locking the door, don't want anyone to come in. I walk into the living room before plopping on the couch.

All I can remember is when me and Alfie fought while having a nice and 'relaxing meal' which turned into us screaming at each other. I wonder if Alfie has came and visited me while I was at my mums?

Probably not.

Damn, why am I still angry at him? Because he lied to you about Courtney, my subconsious reminds me. I groan before running my hands across my face.

I really needs some company here right now. Not a human, like an animal. Okay, now I sound crazy.

But I've always wanted a guinea pig but never had the time to get one. Without any second thought, I pick up, my keys and walk out the door, slamming it behind me like someone is there.

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I did,it, I actually did it. I brought two guinea pigs from Pets at home. Maybe I should have thought about it longer but there just so cute.

I decided to name them Pippin and Percy, very different but I like it. I open my flat door again and put the cage that I brought them down on the floor as well. I have to set this up for the guinea pigs. The lady at the shop gave me a whole pack of stuff for the guinea pigs, including food, hay and a couple of toys.

After many hours of putting together pieces, I finally made the guinea pig house and it is beautiful. The cage is two storages how, which a cute, white staircase trailing down it.

My doorbell rung, making my heart leap out my chest. Please don't be Alfie, I'm not ready to see him.

I stand up before walking to the door and opening it. I was greeted by Jack in a grey sweater and blue jeans.

Oh no.

"Jack," I breathed, his smile growing. "What are you doing here?"

"Visiting you of course, it's been a while right?" He laughed, wrapping his arm around my waist. It was sweet and soft but not as soft as Alfie's.

"It has been a while." I said, blushing after knowing the last time I saw Jack we shared a sexual experience. "Come here, I want to show you something." I said, waving my hand for him to follow.

I wanted to show him the guinea pigs, we walked into the living room. "Close your eyes." I whispered, he laughed before sticking both hands over his eyes.

I placed both hands on his shoulders, leading him towards the guinea pigs. One of the guinea pigs nose were perked up, ready for food. I prayed he wouldn't make a sound because then Jack would know straight away.

"Open your eyes in 3..." I giggled, placing my hand over my mouth.

"2..." I couldn't wait to see his face.

"1..."

"Open your eyes!" I exclaimed, taking my hands off his eyes, he went down to his knees and peered down at the guinea pigs.

"Did you buy them?" He asked, looking up at me. His green eyes sparkled in the sun. I kneeled down next to him.

"Yeah, I brought them today, do you like them?" I asked, he looked and me nodding, smiling. "I thought I try something new."

"I think this is good for something new, very extraordinary." He smiled, I was kind of glad Jack was here, he was good with company.

I knew this was bad, but I was only hanging out with Jack. I can still be friends with him, and I need someone right now. I don't think I can cope alone. "Extraordinary huh?" I laughed.

"Of course, I mean I have my tortoises at home, but thats about it." He said, I realised now how close his face is getting. Sugar...

"You like them?" I breathed, his face inches closer, he runs one of his slender fingers down my hair.

"I do, but I think I like you more." He whispered, his lips brush against mine. Making my breath hitch in my throat.

His lips attach to mine, his hand caressing my face. His tongue runs along my bottom lip, making me moan into his mouth.

"I know you can't deny your feelings for me." He says against my lips. My stomach turns when I realise what I'm doing.

I pull away and stand up. "Woah, Zoe- are you okay?" He exclaimed, standing up and gently brushing my elbows.

"I can't do this Jack. This back and forth stuff, it's not right." I shakily said, running a hand through my hair.

"So your going to pick him? After everything he's done to you!" He growls, his tone catching me off guard.

"I'm not picking any of you, I'm just saying it's not right for me to play between you two."

"What has Alfie done for you? I've made you feel special, sexy and other things. Your simply just going to say bye and everything is going to be okay?" He asks, his voice beginning to crack. I've never seen this emotional side of him.

"I'm not letting any of you two go, if I do pick any of you, you have to learn to accept my decisions. How would you feel if you liked me and another girl? How would you feel." I ask, a tear streaming down my cheek. "It's so hard, Jack. It's so hard."

"Ssh..." He whispers, pulling me into his arms and letting me sob into his chest. "I'm sorry for snapping at you like that, I shouldn't have."

"No... it's fine, I deserved it." I sobbed, the tears leaking from my eyes.

"Hey, look at me." He softly orders, two fingers hook under my chin and I'm forced to look into his green eyes. "You didn't deserve that, if you pick Alfie, yes I'll be upset but I'll never want to leave the offer of being your friend."

"Thank you." I whisper. We stood there, me crying into his arms with a very confused heart and mind.

{AUTHORS NOTE: how is everyone? is the updating okay? it's really hard to update with homework and everything but I'm learning to make time for homework, socialising and writing fanfiction. I hope you all understand 😘 does anyone know any good Fanfictions or Fanfictions you've written yourself i'd love to read them}