If Only I Had The Words {Zalfie/Joella}

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ZOES POV

I stared down at Jack, he was going to tell me something that was going to upset me? This is probably one of his jokes again, and we'll laugh it off.

But there's a feeling deep down inside of me, doubting me otherwise. "Sit down Zoe."

I swallow deep in my throat, and sit down. I take my hand out of Jacks and place it on my lap. "Whatever you say, is it going to hurt me?" I whispered, he took a deep breath before rubbing his hand over his face. "Tell me!"

"Yes," He replied back harshly, the volume of his voice pinging at my chest. "It will hurt you so much... That, I think you'll never keep in contact with me again!" My lip trembled with sadness, the feeling of loneliness overcoming my body.

"Just tell me..." I cried, a tear splashing down my cheeks. "Tell me." I shout, my body shaking as every tear drops.

"Back when you had your car crash, I visited you, Alfie visited you and Courtney," He said, gripping onto the pale blue blankets that covered his body. "Well that day Alfie broke up with Courtney, she came to my house."

A shallow cry escapes my lips, and I bow my head into my hands. "She was angry, very angry. And she made this deal... A deal to sleep with you." He said, and a loud sob escaped my lips. "She knew how much your dignity meant to you, due to your teen yea-"

"She told you?" I cried, lifting my head out my hand. "She told you the biggest thing about me! How dare she!" I shouted, kicking Jacks bed.

"I'm sorry Zoe," He whispered, attempting to grab my hand but I pull away. "Please,"

"No," I whispered, standing up from my chair. "I will not sit here and listen to a guy who has been lying to me this entire time. That time at the hotel, when I became intimate with you- that meant nothing to you?"

"At the time, no." He admitted, and another set of tears escaped. My throat began to tighten and feel dry. "But I'm falling for you Zo-"

"Don't, don't ever speak to me again- you hear me? Don't come near me or Alfie because I'm done with you, done." I shouted, running out of Jacks room and into the elevator.

I pulled out my phone out my pocket and dialled Alfie's number. He answers almost instantly. "Hey Babe,"

"Alfie, could you come here? Like right now?" I sobbed, wiping my tears on my sleeves. He mumbles something before hanging up. The elevator door opens and I walk through the lobby quickly to outside.

I'm met by a cold breeze and I slouch down the wall and bring my knees to my chest and sobbed. How dare he? How could I have never spotted the signs? He always tried to jump at the chance and he was always by my side.

My body trembled with coldness and anxiety. The blood that ran through my veins were cold and contained no heat. I looked up and saw Alfie running towards me. Nothing happened, I was numb.

His voice was piercing through my ears, and it was barely audible. "Zoe, baby, come on." He said, hooking his arms under my knees and carrying me bridal style. "What happened?"

I couldn't speak, I was screaming my answer but nothing was coming out. I felt trapped, empty and betrayed. Alfie opened up the back of his car and laid me down putting his coat over me.

All I remember was the car starting and my eyes becoming droopy as I fell into a deep sleep.

***

I woke up to the steaming sunshine and I hid underneath my blanket. My head pulsed with pains of memories and reality. The bedroom door opened, and the sound of footsteps were heard.

"Zoe? Are you awake?" Alfie asked, taking a seat on the bed. "Darling, please tell me what's wrong, your worrying me."

My throat was dry with pain, and my eyes burned with tears. He slowly dragged the blanket down, that revealed my face. "Oh Zoe." He whispered, he tucked his arms around my waist and pulled me onto his lap.

My face fell into the crook of his neck as a weak sob escaped my lips, a sound that didn't sound like me. His soothing fingers ran up and down my back. "Ssh love, ssh."

"Remember in the hospital, when I said I wish I could feel your pain?" He said, another cry escaped, no words, just cried. "I've always felt it. I've always been to stubborn to but now that I do, I don't want to let the feeling go.

I clutched onto his grey tshirt and held him close. "I'm in love with you Zoe Sugg."

***

COURTNEYS POV

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock. The clock beeped on and on. I sat on the floor in the dimly lit closet. I wonder if anyone has suspected me of killing Jack? He's dead right?

I dug my nails into the flesh of my leg, enjoying the pain that pulsed through my body.

I smiled at the blood that ran down my leg, almost wanted to laugh but I had to be quiet because.

"Zoe? Do you want anything?" Alfie asked Zoe, through the closet. The little baby had been weeping in his chest for the past hour.

And what your all thinking, I'm sat in Zoe's closet, waiting.

Waiting for something I've been planning so long.

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