Do You Think I'm Okay? t.f. x reader

17

"Uuuggghhh.." I groaned audibly, for the millionth time, as I rolled around in my bed, messing up my covers even more.
My hair was thrown up into a messy bun which was once neat, but now it was a representation of my feelings.

I hadn't left my room in 3 days, my coworkers and even my butler were starting to worry about me, calling and texting me every day to make sure I was still alive.
I am alive, but I don't feel like it. My eyes constantly welled up with tears on their own, I didn't have control over them anymore. My heart felt heavy and my lungs felt tight, my stomach was never hungry anymore.
But I ignored my body, I ignored my friends, I ignored the world.

You wanna' know why?

Because I haven't talked to Tom since the day he left.
Every day I refresh my Twitter, Instagram, and even Facebook, hoping that there'd be a sign that he was feeling the same shit I was.
But to my luck, he always sounded normal. The tweets he'd post, the pictures with his girlfriend and the cast, all the same. Never even a mention of me or my name.
It was to the point where even my followers were getting distressed about me. But you already know what I did.

I ignored them.

I refreshed my Twitter for what seems like the billionth time, hoping for some new tweets. A small smile blessed my face as I saw there were.
But soon, the smile disappeared once again.

@willowbaby: @tomfelton baby, I'm so glad we're spending this whole week together for our two year anniversary! It feels like these years have gone by in a flash! 😍💞

@tomfelton: @willowbaby I love you too babe! So, so much! I wouldn't break up with you for anything or anyone! 😘❤️

My heart dropped as I read Tom's tweet. I read, reread, and re-reread it.
'I wouldn't break up with you for anything and anyone..'

I forced myself to scroll up, reloading the page for more new tweets to take my mind off of Tom.
But it's no use really, Tom is always on my mind one way or another.

@Y/Nismyqueen: @therealY/N Where have you been? We're all so worried about you! We love you so much! #wemissyouY/N

@Y/Nsenpai: @therealY/N DUUUUUDDEE, do I need to call up Dora so we can find your hiding ass? I LOVE YOU HOE 💖 #wemissyouY/N

@TomandY/Naregoals: @tomfelton @emmawatson where the diddly heck is Y/N? Is she dead or somethin? #wemissyouY/N

[Daily Reminder]
Trump Angrily Tweets About Kim Jong Un!
Stranger Things Season 3 Is Coming Out In 7 Months!
#wemissyouY/N Is A World Wide Trending Topic!

@emmawatson:
@TomandY/Naregoals I have no clue. I haven't seen her in a few weeks. I believe the last person to see her was @finnwolfhard and @tomfelton

@finnwolfhard: @emmawatson
I was with her at the premier party, but left before her with the rest of the Stranger Things cast. She must've gotten taken home by someone. Probably @tomfelton.

@emmawatson: @finnwolfhard thanks dude! @tomfelton do you have any clue where she is?

@finnwolfhard: @emmawatson no problem Em! I'm just as worried about her as the rest of you are. #wemissyouY/N <3 :(

@willowbaby: @emmawatson
I remember him telling me that he was taking her home. She must still be at her place, probably has been in her room for a week straight. 😂

@finnwolfhardismydaddy: @finnwolfhard @therealY/N
I ship it. #finn+Y/N

@tomfelton: @willowbaby @emmawatson @finnwolfhard yeah, I took her home. She's probably fine. Probably just taking my a short vacation. :)

Oh yeah, of course Tom. Of course I'm 'probably fine.' I'm probably having the time of my fucking life on this 'short vacation.'

@finnwolfhard: @finnismydaddy Y/N is literally twice my age. I'm still an innocent smol bean. Maybe in my dreams, though. ;) #finn+Y/N

@emmawatson: @tomfelton I know Y/N. she would've texted us or told us IRL. She wouldn't worry us like this. And @willowbaby, I don't like how you're making jokes about this. I'm her best friend, sorry I actually give a fuck about her.

@nerdville114: @emmawatson @willowbaby OOOH SHIT, EMMA THROWIN SHADE! #emmaVSwillow

@dramioneforlyfe: @emmawatson @willowbaby damn Emma, why not come out with a diss track already? #emmaVSwillow #emmaissavage

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Prince Harry Is Getting Married Soon!
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@willowbaby: @emmawatson
Just tryna light the mood, damn. Why you mad feisty? If she actually cared, she would've told you where she is, lol. #chilltfout

@Y/Nismyfavebitch: @emmawatson am I the only one that wants to constantly fight @willowbaby? #justsaying

@tomfelton: @willowbaby @emmawatson both of you need to calm down before this whole thing goes viral. And Emma, Willow has a point. If Y/N cared enough, she would've told us. Maybe she just wants attention. 🤷🏼‍♂️🤔

My heart snapped, I could barely breathe. Tears rolled down my cheeks as my stomach felt like it was burning, ready to throw up the little that was in it. Anger and sadness coursed through my veins, my hands trembling as I tried to keep my phone still.

Suddenly, I felt confident. The built up rage made my ego and self esteem rise like my blood pressure.
I typed at lightning speed, so fast that I thought I might break my phone screen. It took me a few tries, not gonna' lie. It's hard to type when your eyes are burning from the flood of tears that's escaping them.
I didn't even think about pressing 'done' because I knew if I did think about it, I'd regret what I typed out and I would delete it all.

As soon as I pressed 'done,' I turned off my phone, which by this point was blowing up in the milliseconds that the tweet had been posted.
I sniffled, wiping my face with my sweatshirt sleeve. I rolled over in my messy bed with my messy bun falling over slightly, hair strands going everywhere, an image of my Tweet plastered in my brain.

@therealY/N: @tomfelton maybe if YOU cared enough, you would've stayed and told me what I did wrong instead of leaving me alone with my depressed and suicidal thoughts. Maybe YOU just wanted this attention. 🤷🏼‍♀️🤔