I'll Wear Orange - (finished)

I'll Wear Orange - Peanut butter, yes or no?

Chapter four, another short one.

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Chapter Five - Peanut butter, yes or no?

Tuesday evening.

The doctors told me it wasn't as bad as I thought. The lump I mean. But they also didn't tell me it was nothing. She told me, that she normally would have suggested for me to go back in one or two weeks for a check up. Then said 'But because of your . . . situation, come back in one or two days and I will have another look.' doesn't instil the best of hope, does it.

After I told Cole what the doctors had said, he freak out a teeny tiny bit and took me home, told me to stay on the sofa and rest. Me being me, told him I wanted to go to the yard, see Ace. He was like, no you're staying here. SO I said he couldn't stop me. And he said, 'maybe I can't, but I am the only one of us that drives.' He had me there. So reluctantly I spent the rest of the day on the sofa watching films. I put My Sister's Keeper on. Maybe not such a smart choice, since I spent the whole film wondering if I would end up like Kate, and Owen would end up like Taylor. Minus the dating bit obviously.

I went upstairs for a while too, decided I'd try and sleep a bit, and everyone says it might do me good. Ten's minutes I had, filled with dreams. Well, nightmares actually, I won't go into detail but at the end, I was always in a box. I got up and was going to go to my sister's room, I wanted my iPod speakers. Music would be good. I started to feel dizzy as I walked, and ended up falling down the stairs, no fun really since I didn't even want to go down. I made some horrible gargled gasp when I hit the bottom. /Son of a gun/ I thought, /that bloody hurt/ I felt my legs bleeding again, but the pain was over writen by the pain in my neck.

Cole picked me up and carried me back upstairs, guess a big strong man comes in usefull. He still hasn't left yet, says he wants to stay in case I need him. Which was good, 'cause I was sick again after that, he rubbed my back and tied back my hair.

I got a message off Jay, which probably sparked one of the oddest conversations I have ever had. *peanut butter, yes or no?* it said. *we're playin a game so I can get to knw u a lil better* I though he might have lost a couple of marbles or something. Then again, never knew how many he had to start with =p.

*Erm if it's smooth yes. Nutty, no* I answered.

*Good. Snap*

*Why'd you wanna play* I said.

*u next*

*I don't get it. Explain. That was rude. Can you explain please?* I said.

He explained, it was *u say something u like and ask the other person yes or no. Or u do two things and they choose out of two* that was his explanation. I honestly do think the old man has marbles missing.

*lemons or limes* I said

*lime*

I shook my head *lemons. Eaten like an orange :)*

*Ok apple or banana. I knw urs is apple actually*

*Apple. Yup you're right tis apple.* we played for a while. Pasta or rice, I picked pasta he picked rice

*ice cream or milkshake* he said.

*is it a milkshake or a smoothie?*

*milkshake*

*milkshake then. Your turn*

*Loser ice cream all the way! That was my turn idiot I said milkshake or ice cream :)* oh yeah, I knew that.

*milkshake made with ice cream and smarties!*

*lol ur like Lisha try mint aero or fererro rocher. The milkshake I mean. Taste them. Mmm yes *licks lips* lmao* I laughed, which turned into a cough. Fun fun. We gave up on the game after that because I could think of nothing to ask. Jay decided to show me a picture, then not tell me what it was. I was so confused *evil glare*

Hug or kiss came up at some point. I said it depended on my mood, and right then I could have killed for a bear hug. He said he'd come squeeze the air outta me. I was like nah, I like breathing =D. Not that I said that.

I waited for a while, before I told Jay about the doctors. I mean, he got upset when I told him what they were testing for, well angry but still. I didn't want to do that to him again. I talked to Lisha about it, and she said if I valued my friendship with him, then I'd tell him. So, I did.

I think he took it better than the tests thing, but he still went out on his bike *Growls* Dunno if he smoked today, but one day . . . one day! Seriously I am going to take a cigarette out of his mouth and stomp on it. According to him, I couldn't reach. My answer was, 'I can jump', his was 'and I can stretch.'

I want to talk to him tonight, maybe get all this crap out the way. I hope I don't upset him again, it's becoming a bit of a habit. A habit I don't like *sad face*

I'll admit I am still scared, I mean, I keep thinking of all the things I won't be able to do if I am sick. And at the forefront, my horses. /try not to think about it. Try not to think about it. Try not to freaking think about it!/ My sister's keeper defiantly didn't help with that.

I'm still waiting on my bear hug. Guess I shall have to find myself a bear.

Cole didn't let me go and see Owen today either, or the twins, or the horses. I think he is trying to bore me to death. Lisha's on his side *growls* mean people, but I love em. I better see the twins tomorrow or . . . I dunno what, but I want to see them I miss them. I have this strange ache through my neck and back and around my arms too, which won't go away. Then my other arm still hurts soo bad from that bloodtest. It's all swollen and puffy looking and purple! Ugh, never mind.

That's all for today, night diary! Xx

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