I'll Wear Orange - (finished)

I'll Wear Orange - The innocent, and the not so.

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This one is for my miniatures. Kate and Morgan <3

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Chapter Nine - The innocent, and the not so.

Thursday evening.

There isn't much more to say about today, not yet anyway. I got home from school. Cole took me to his house, and then curled up with me on the sofa. I was absolutely freezing, he got me a blanket and then Morgan joined us. She was so quiet, just curled up next to me, and held my hands. I had my head on Coles lap and sort of looked at him like, what's up with her, and he shrugged. So we sat there having a cuddle, and she looked at me with watery eyes and goes 'I don't want you to be sick, I like your hair,' oh my, I nearly cried right there. Then I was talking to Jay and I think everything just smacked into.

Realisation is a bitch. I went to cook dinner for Cole and family, I mean, they've done loads for me so I thought I'd cook. I swear Morgan's fingers had fused with my hand; she just wouldn't let me go. Then I tried to pick her up, and put her on the worktop like I normally do when she helps me cook and I couldn't. I couldn't believe how weak I was, Jay was talking to me, saying I need to eat. Because if I am sick, the less I eat, the weaker I'm going to get.

Looking at Morgan, I saw something I didn't want to. I had a flash of my life, you know cliché crap but still. Jay asked me what was wrong when I messaged him a sad face. What if I never get to be a mum? That's pretty much what I said. I want a baby so bad, but well . . . I don't think I'll get one now. I broke down and had to leave the room, I wouldn't want Morgan to see me cry. For all the good it did. She followed me, and sat on my lap when she found me.

'Everything is gonna be okay,' she said. 'Don't cry,' as she said it, Morgan hugged me and I harder. Then the adorably cute joined forces with "the other one" Yeah, Jay and Morgan ended up joining forces. I swear, he's stealing my miniatures! Anyway, Morgan got me to tell Jay that because he wanted me to eat, she would make sure I did. He agreed, then when she asked him if she could poke me when I stopped eating. You know what he said? Ugh, he said she could feed my like a baby, mean! I asked her to stop because I was feeling sick again, and she wouldn't, know why? Jay had to tell her to stop, because he's boss. *growls* mean.

I know he does everything because he cares, and stuff. He says, if I ever need him, he'll be there. But I can't help but feel . . . well, not so good about that. I don't like upsetting him or Lisha. Who by the way, has been working all day so I've decided she is going to cut my hair the next time it needs going. (If I have any. Thats another thing, Jay and I were talking about something, I can't remember what but I said, I was going to end up ugly, blad and fat. Not exactly atractive right? And he said *U wont get ugly weirdo and ill kill any1 who says u is* It's so weird, having someone say stuff like that if you know what I mean. I mean, I have never had anyone, who would stick up for me or anything. That comes with being a loner)

I got Morgan ready for bed, and Kate decided to come in too. She spent the evening in the pool with their dog. I tucked Kate in, and then went back to Morgan since she asked me to stay with her tonight. I laid and cuddled her until she fell asleep, now I am sitting on her window seat with my laptop on my knees writing this. I keep wondering what it would be like, if I was older and Morgan was my kid. Then have to shake the thought before I cry.

I watched Bucket List while I was at school, no lessons again. It seems like a good idea. I don't know what I would put on mine though. Maybe go scuba diving on the Great Barrier Reef. Go cliff diving, and chase a tornado.

Right now, it's raining; I think there is another storm on the way, this one I can watch from the window seat, so Jay won't moan! Anyway, I better be going, I think I'll get back in bed with Morgs, I like having cuddles with her. Don't get me wrong, Kate is awesome. She is just a little hyper for my liking and I feel to warn out to run around with her at the moment ha-ha. I'll keep my laptop on next to me, because Jay said he'd talk. Mr evaporado, that's his new name. He enjoys evaporating.

Anyway, night, D. I'll write tomorrow. Oh, and before I forget, one more thing to add to my "things to fight for" list.

Number 6) Morgan and Kate Summers. The kid's I may never have, I'll look after you, till I'm gone. Even if you do force feed me and join forces with the enemy =) Love you. x

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Thanks for reading,

I was wondering - If you leave a comment on this chapter - can you put one thing that would be on your bucket list?

Ciao...

Alice....x