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BORING BOYFRIEND
"after maybe ten seconds i pull away a smirk in my face as i see the look on finn's face."
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gaten and caleb haven't talked to me till yesterday at lunch and sadie spend all her afternoon with peyton, i guess they are official or something but she won't tell me because she surely know for me and romeo since she looked really mad at me.
"sweetie, are you ready?" ask my mom from outside the bathroom.
"yes, i'm coming." i answer before putting a last coat of pink lipstick on my lips.
i look at myself in the mirror once more before leaving, i look bad but it's not as horrible as it used to be.
i sat on the front seat of my mom's car and she starts the car.
"you're ready for today?" she ask.
"yeah." i answer, but the truth is that i'm not, i'm not ready to see finn and romeo and for my heart and my brain to fight.
i know if i'm logic and wise i should go to romeo but my heart always brigs me back to finn.
i know i don't feel love for romeo, i'm not even sure if i like him but he's the good decision.
"we're here, have a good day." shout my mom.
i open the car door and get up. i make my way to my locker.
"hey." i feel a hand slip in mine and i look at the boy next to me.
"hey romeo." i smile.
"i missed you." he peck my cheek.
"thanks, i'm sorry i didn't tell my friends sooner." i apologize.
"no problem, i'm happy i can now tell you're mine." he answer.
"i'm yours?" i ask dumbfounded.
"yes, you're not okay with that?" he ask.
"i mean..." i start but he cut me with a kiss.
i don't kiss back at first because i didn't want to kiss him but since he don't break the kiss i start moving my lips in sync with him. i feel his tongue caressing my lips but i don't want him to do it so i don't open my mouth and pull away.
"this was too much?" he ask.
"no, but i don't want to."
i feel violated, i didn't want to kiss him. i didn't feel anything. it's really weird.
he take my hand again and i find it annoying. i look to my left and see gaten, caleb and sadie looking at me like if i'm some whore, if they hate me, i don't care they should accept my choice.
but then i look at my right and see finn, his eyes are wide and he gulp before leaving the corridor. i want to run after him but i can't. that's not how it works.
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i spend all my morning with romeo, he's a good guy and he's really chill.
"are you gonna sit with me at lunch?" he ask.
"yeah sure." gaten and sadie sure won't sit with me so they won't mind.
"cool!" he answer and take my hand, again.
we make our way to lunch and sut at a little table.
"you know that we win the match because of me tuesday? i was so good and..."
rimeo keep talkinng about soccer and about "how good he is". how could i forget how self-centered he is?
i search my friends with my eyes and when i find them they are all looking at me and romeo badly.
why can't they just be happy for me? i thought they were my friends.
"...i bought this great shirt who look really good on me. i think i'm gonna wear it friday because i look sooo good in it..." romeo continue his speech.
i look in front of me and see something i wish i didn't: iris apatow, on finn's lap. he have his head on her shoulder and he's smiling.
why her? she don't deserve him. she fucked with almost every boy in the school. finn's nit searching for that. he search a girl to love him.
she's just a hoe who don't deserve such a loving boy.
"oh my god pumpkin, why are you crying?" romeo asks, calling me with a stupid pet name.
he then dry a tear i didn't even know i let drop with his thumb.
"don't... don't do that." i demand rudely.
"what? why?" he ask.
« "i was thinking... i don't know... maybe we can be makeout buddy?" i ask him, almost in a whisper at the end.
"okay cutie, you know what? give me your number i'll text you tonight because right now you're clearly confused and unable to think clearly" he tell me pushing a tear i didn't even know i've let dropped away of my face with his thumb. »
memories of the first time i met finn plays in my head.
"just... don't" i answer before drying the other tears with my sleeves.
i see finn turning his head to look at me. i don't know why he is doing this to me but i won't let him play with my feelings like this so i take romeo's cheek with my hand and kiss him roughly, closing my eyes.
after maybe ten seconds i pull away a smirk in my face as i see the look on finn's face.
"what was that for?" ask romeo smiling.
"nothing." i answer still smirking.
romeo start talking about himself again but i don't listen, i just look at finn.
he breathe out and cups iris cheek who looks dumbfounded by his action and he put his lips on hers slowly.
that hurts
she put her hands on each sides of his face and i see their tongues playing with each others. it's disgusting.
they are disgusting, iris js disguting, finn is disgusting.
i hate them, i hate caleb, sadie and gaten, i hate myself.
"i'm sorry i'll be back." i announce before leaving my boyfriend to go behind the school.
i sit, my back on the cold wall and put my head in my hands.
i stay there and cry for maybe thirty minutes.
why do i always fuck everything up?
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i'm so excited for the next chapter but i'm not gonna write it now because i only write shitty chapter today.
thank you so much for 16k it's unbelievable ily.
-jeanne
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