Second Chances for Tyler Landry

Forever

"I don't quite know the reason why I did what I did to you Mack, and I doubt that either of us will ever truly know. I think that I was stuck in a time vortex and I couldn't get out of my own head. You know how my family was, but that still is no excuse for ignoring and ignoring how much you really did sacrifice for me. I kept coming back to you because I knew you were the only one who actually gave a shit about me. I'm not saying that giving up what I'm going to is gonna be easy, and I'm not promising that I'm going to be normal any time soon, but I think that if you stay with me than we might both survive. I don't wanna be without you because I realized the kind of connection we have. It's like no matter what, there's something deeper inside and it pulls us toward eachother like some imaginary fishing line. I think our souls are connected, which is why if you died, I would too. I can't live without you because what reason would there to be alive without someone or something to live for. I have nothing and no one but you in my life. All those other girls were exactly what you said they were, they were whores. I never took anything too seriously because I wasn't raised to believe that anyone really mattered. My parents left me when I needed them the most. I almost hate them for it, because if they would have stayed, maybe I wouldn't be as fucked up as I am. And maybe you wouldn't feel the way that you do. I went back to the beginning, trashing my life because I thought you didn't care anymore. I thought that the only way that I would feel something would be through drugs. But, it was all artificial and honestly, I couldn't stay sober one second without thinking about you and how much I just wanted to show up at your door. But, I was too proud, too fucking pigheaded to see that all you wanted was proof that I cared about you just as much as you cared about me. I couldn't stand that after a while you didn't even acknowledge my existence. I started trying to be more fucked up because I wanted you to save me again, I wanted you in my life. I had yet to realize that you had already saved me, and it was my turn to save you. When I saw those pills, when I saw what you had done to yourself, I was ready to go into your mom's medicine cabinet, and lay down with you. I still can't even imagine what even five minutes of knowing that you were dead would do to me, it would be worse than death. Mack, I'm not saying that I can give you everything that you've ever wanted, I doubt I can even give you one thing that you wanted, but if you stay alive, I will never leave your side. Because that is the only place in this world where I belong. I'm not saying we would ever have a normal, easy relationship, but I'll be damned if we won't stay together forever. If you live, I'll live. If you promise to stay, I'll love you until we are reincarnated and have to start this whole process all over again."

Tyler looked at Mackenzie, out of breath and flushed with passion.

Mackenzie's worn out and now dementedly happy face lit up into a smile. A real smile.

A smile that would put fireflies and Christmas morning's to shame. A smile that Tyler had been waiting to see for what seemed like years.

"I promise." she said, absolutely no doubt in her voice.

"You promise what?" he asked, wanting her to say it.

"I promise to make you love me forever." she said with a huge grin.

And she did.