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First Love, we all have that. The first person our eyes seen the most beautiful scene. The voice our ears most soulful sound we've heard. The first laugh that tickles our sensitive senses. The first that made our hearts feels like had a 100 kilometers running dash without a pause. The first touch that sends shiver down each bone of our spine. The first person that made you feel so special with just one Hello and How are you. The first kiss that delivers you to heaven with fireworks doing wonderful sparkling display around you, feeling like your foot doesn't feel the ground. Most of all, FIRST LOVE NEVER DIES.
Yet, destiny don't always give what makes us happy because as they said, above has planned something best. First love rarely becomes last. However, what if you're me? Left your own family to be with the first man you love with the fact that your current husband knows about it. That you just wanted to be fair with him, not making him endure the pain of not loving your own husband and giving him chance to find a girl that will love him the most; unlike me.
I know, I've hurt lots of people closest to my heart; especially my children. Yet, it doesn't just my fault. I thought my husband understand, I thought he wholeheartedly accepted my leaving when he sign up the divorce paper without our children notice. I was looking forward back then to a peacefully separation, that he would let me see my children once in a while.
But, they all betray me. My first love wasn't the first guy I've love before. He change a lot. He beat me and his daughter. He force me to change my name into Claire Ford. We married and divorce after some years with revelations that the wife my former husband have was his wife. I know everything is unclear. Ashley is Robertson, she thought I am too. Everything was all planned from the very beginning. Fake documents and all. Everything is a lie.
Destiny fuck me up. What can I do? I can't go back anymore. The father of my children married a new woman, my children will never understand and take the pain. This is the prize of me being not contented about my life. And what I've learned? Teach yourself how to be contented, following your foolish heart is not always the answer. Sometimes, you have to let destiny do its work and not interfere. It put me into the right place but I go back to the wrong one.
Now, I'm alone. Keeping loads of secrets. What if my daughter knew she was adopted? What if my ex-husband show-up? What if my daughter learned that the 10 million is in hands of her father and Mr. Davids who helped us is accomplice? What if my Son find me? I have thousands of what if... All in all. I am just a bad person, a worthless mother.
"I don't need this money! I never asked for this Gab... I only want to live in peace with Ashley. Stop whatever you are doing! You had the money already! I'm not sleeping well every night! What do you want from me?"
