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Harshly bitterness, gloomy darkness and heaping resentment. All of those negative emotions collided made myself depressed and had anxiety which helps draining the last left hope inside my heart.
I didn't go to work. How would I if my mind is going crazy thinking where probably my wife now? If she's fine, eating or even alive. Either Jin look for her but her existence becomes elusive as if Ash was hiding in purposed. I already file to the police about her disappearance, I asked Mr. Davids to hire investigators to find her. And me...
I am here in my small apartment staring at my cellphone screen with her photo as wallpaper not letting it drained off battery. Checking from time to time to see if she will send me even blank message.
Yes. I did clean the house from time to time. Wash my hands, clean myself, pulling myself back to the old useless me. But then, memories of her that lingers in this very place reminds me how she wanted me to become a better person. How she nag me if I were about to take a bath again. Her, telling me how I had improve and she really love to see me getting better. Her touch to my tense muscles when I feel restless and cannot stop tapping my fingers on the keyboard. When she snatch the plate from my hands because I can't stop scrubbing it.
Ash has become my cure and I won't let her feel disappointed when she gets home and gone back to the untouchable man that what only knows is to isolate himself from everyone.
Four days. This apartment feels very empty, my heart too. Yet, there is something in myself cheering me up.
I look down on the dining table that I arrange for me and her. It's truly crazy idea to prepare a plate for her but this is my way to cope up, this is my passage of telling myself that everything will be okay and she'll be here one day and occupy that empty seat.
I cannot eat, I don't have a strength to chew and swallow any amount of food but I am forcing myself because how will I be able to find her if I am not healthy? I am in the middle of chewing yet not tasting the food when my phone rang. I quickly get the glass of water and drink it down to swallow the food while gazing at the screen. My heart suddenly pounded too fast like it's sound reaches my sensitive hearing.
I did not waste any second and answer the call. I automatically furrowed my brows when all I could hear is a buzz sound.
"Hello! What going on? Talk to me!" I panicky thrown him questions and next thing I heard is a sigh.
"I found her." After hearing that good news. My energy seems all go back. My longingness replace with excitement. A happy hopeful smile curve into my face.
Without second thought. I get my coat and car key that I hang behind the door and get out the apartment.
"Where is she? I'm going there now." I asked. While walking towards my parked car.
