Just Another Day (Adopted By Josh Dun)

Thirty-Six

Kamryn
I ignored my phone and the boy's questions about the situation. My phone started to ring again. Misha picked it up and answered it. "Hello?" I heard a shout from the other side. He held the phone away from his ear and put it on speaker. "Kamryn who the fuck answered your phone?" "Ethan why the fuck do you keep calling me? The last I checked, you were disowning me. I moved away to be closer to my career." I walked into the room next to my dressing room. Jared and Jensen were in there and stared at me in confusion. "I want you to come back. Quit that stupid show and get back with Kim. We need you." "Ethan for the last fucking time. Kim and I are broken up for a fucking reason, give it a damn rest. This 'stupid' show has changed my life for the better and if you don't want to be apart of it, then stay the fuck out of my god damn business. I am staying here with my family. Lose my fucking number."

I set my phone on the table and collapsed on the couch. "After the 30th time today, you decided to pick up because?" "I didn't, Mish did. I don't blame him. It was getting annoying. I just fucking hate how my only brother is acting like I destroyed our family. He acts like it is my fault that Kim left." Jared picked me up and sat me in his lap. "I hate that the only person who probably loved me in a romantic way is way to blinded by our relationship that she couldn't see I'm happy." I crossed my arms, a frown set on my face. "Kam, you're only 15. You have time to wait for someone." I shook my head. "No one is gonna love a pansexual fuck up." With that I ran out of the room. "KAM!" Jared alerted a bunch of the guys. Rich and Luci ran out of the directing area. This was a normal thing for us. Sometimes it would be for fun, others would be for a serious reason. It was all because of me. These boys have wasted too much time on me.

I ran out to the parking lot before I got picked up by one of the boys. I screamed and writhed in his arms. "Kam. It's okay." Rich's calming voice in my ear managed to calm me a bit. He let me loose, only for me to take off my shoes and run off farther. My house was about a block away from the studio. I ran in and closed the door. Josh poked his head out of the kitchen. "You look like hell." I ignored him and went up to my room. I heard more voices downstairs. "What happened this time?" A new set of tears rolled down my face. I let out a strangled sob. A scream pierced through the darkness of my room.

I heard one of the boys run up the stairs. Rich walked in. I turned away from him and stared out my window. "You can't be running from set kiddo." "Is that seriously all you care about?" I heard him huff. "Kam, I'm really trying here. I may look like a gigantic teddy bear, but your feelings scare me as much as you do. One minute you're in la la land and the next you're running off set crying." I frowned. "Then stop trying. I've given up." "That's the depression talking. I know you don't want me to give up. Your brother is a prick, most are. You can't let that stop you from doing what you love." I shrugged. "I just don't feel it anymore. I needed Kim more than she clearly needed me. Ethan was the only family I had left and he turned away from me. I've tried building families and it turned into a big burden. I don't know what else I am to do."