Just Another Day (Adopted By Josh Dun)

Føurty-Nine

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Kamryn
I pushed through the crowd in front of Starbucks and up to the front. "There you are!" Marvin threw his arms around me and handed me an apron. "I'm here. So is Sammy. Sorry we're late, Sammy had to use the bathroom." Sammy barked at me, as if understanding my words. "Why is there a bunch of people in here and not ordering coffee?" "Your old buddies Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, and Richard Speight Jr are here." "Great out of all the days I forget to take my anxiety pills, I have to deal with this shit." Marvin patted me on the back and turned to a customer. It had been a month since the start of school and I haven't had one panic attack, but today I forgot my pills and the boys being here makes it worse. "Go take a few minutes in the back. Sammy will calm you down." I shook my head. "I need to stay with Gabe, I'll just go sit with him." I gulped and pushed through the small group of people to find Gabe. He is sat at a table in the back, playing on my tablet.

I breathed out in relief. The last thing I need is for him to get hurt. I sat down next to him and pet Sammy to calm myself. "Kammy? Why is that man staring at you?" I looked up and saw Richard's eyes boring into mine. I blushed and looked down, my heart beating quicker. "I-I have no idea." My cheeks heated up more. Sammy licked my cheek and whined. "I'm okay Sammy. Gabe why don't you come sit behind the counter, I don't want you getting hurt out here." I picked him up and carried him over to the counter. "He's gonna sit behind here. I don't want him hurt by the brutal fandom." As if on cue, girls started screaming. I looked over to the door to see Misha and Mark walking in. I cursed loudly, catching the attention of the two.

I groaned and busied myself with cleaning counters, my face red with anger and panic. Sammy started to nudge my leg. I looked down to see him looking at me in a concerned manor. "Kam do you need to step out? I'll watch Gabe." I nodded, I didn't trust my voice. "Do you got any gum on you?" Marvin handed me his pack and pointed to the back door. I ran out with Sammy on my heels. Once outside, I started to panic a bit. "Why out of all the days? Why the day I happen to miss the fuckers the most? Why the day I feel absolutely alone and helpless? Why the damn day I forget my fucking pills?" Tears welled up in my eyes and spilled down my cheeks. I heard the cafe door open and screaming before silence. I wiped my tears and looked up at the sound of footsteps getting closer.

I'll tell you it was a stupid thing to wish it was just Marvin. It was the whole damn crew that had decided to show up at my work place. "Sammy come on." He shot me a look of concern and followed me past the boys all staring at me. "Kam." I stopped but didn't turn. "Why did you have to pick today? I may be acting selfish right now, but the one day I feel absolutely shitty and helpless you decide to get some coffee. Plus there is a fucking Starbucks closer to the damn set. So unless you got a good reason to keep me around, I'm leaving." I wiped the tears that fell down my face and walked to my car. Sammy barked at me, causing me to stop. "I'm not leaving, I'm checking to see if I have any pills in the car." He whined and sat by the open door to my Impala. I looked through my backpack and glovebox to find no sign of pills. "Dammit! I thought I kept an extra fucking bottle in here." I groaned and sat back in the seat. "What is your problem?" I looked up at the voice. Jensen and Jared stood by the car, ignoring Sammy's death glares. "Cursing myself for forgetting my damn pills." I mentally punched myself for saying that.

I grabbed my phone and texted Josh to come get me and Gabe. He said he'd be here in just a minute. I texted Marvin to send Gabe out. Gabe ran out a few minutes later, climbing into the car. "Is there something you needed?" "Kam what the hell happened to you?" I felt more tears well up in my eyes. What did happen to me? Did I just become the person I hated most? Or did I just become the part of myself I tried drowning in music and schoolwork? I don't even know anymore. "Kam!" Josh's shouts knocked me from my thoughts. Sammy jumped in and scooted over to the passenger side. "I sure as hell hope for both your guys sakes that you didn't say anything too bad. She is trying to work past the shit she some how got while working with you guys. She is trying to forget the heartbreak. She already has anxiety, don't fuck her up anymore."

He sat in the driver seat and turned the car on. He drove away from the family I tried so hard not to miss. And I cried harder than I've cried in months. I cried for being stupid and joining the show. I cried for letting myself become someone I wished I'd never become. I cried for being fucked up. I cried for loving the one person who wouldn't ever love me back. And I cried for existing.