What Happens Next

A New Day

     The sun shined, birds chirped, everything always seemed peaceful.  Then you leave your shelter the next day, the camp that provided you shelter, where you may call home, the place that seemed safe.  Once you step out of there, that's when reality kicks in.  The realization that life now is survival of the fittest, that you have you to kill to survive now, whether it was a walker, or another person.  If I could just stay inside and think that dead people weren't walking around, trying to eat everyone, that we could have a normal life, that the people I loved who's life was cut short so soon was still alive.  My mom, my sister, my step-mom, one day my brother, one day Carl who I fell in love with.  Could life just go back to normal? or could the walkers just magically die so we can live what's left of life?

     I stepped out of the trailer Jesus let me and Carl borrow for the night. I was still completely tired and just wanted to keep sleeping.  Screams were still going through my mind, remembering the screams from the man who's face was being ironed off as I left me dad's sanctuary.  Why wouldn't it leave my mind?  The screams were just so horrific, like I could feel the pain he was going through, the pain of such hot metal against my body.  Maybe it's because I been through the pain of hot burning metal against my back while trying to escape from a fire.

     I saw Carl talking with Jesus and they talked about the fight they had at the satellite station against some of my dad's people.  Carl looked to me as I looked away getting ready to head back by the gate.

     When they were done talking, Carl came up to me as we left.

     It was such a long walk, miles and miles away from Alexandria.  I looked to Carl and sighed, "I feel sick." I sighed, "from yesterday?"  He asks as he walked right next to me, "no, I started getting sick when I woke up, I've just had this feeling like I was going to throw up." I sigh staring forward, "I feel like if I eat something soon, I'm just going to throw it up."  We looked to each other as we both had extreme worries for myself, "do you remember anything from that night?" he asked, "I remember everything, I want it to go away.." I say softly, "do you remember if he..?" he says not even having to finish his sentence and I knew what he was talking about as I stared forward in complete fear, "I don't remember that part.. I was.. just staring up, at the ceiling, I felt but.. I didn't know what it was.." I say softly as I looked to Carl, "let's go to a pharmacy.." he says softly.  I nodded as we kept walking, finding our way and got there.

     We went inside and checked the area as I looked around and saw tests, "Carl, over here." I called out as I looked over and saw abortion pills.  I picked them up and took my bag off my back and put them in my bag as I zipped it up and asked Carl to hold my bag while I grabbed the test, "I'm going to go in the bathroom back there.." I sighed as I grabbed hand sanitizer and went into the bathroom and took the test.  I put the test down on the sink counter and grabbed the hand sanitizer and put some on while I waited for the results.  I picked it up looking at the results.