What Happens Next

My Pain

     I hid in a sewer that connected to Alexandria, but was in a grass field, not really seen from the houses.

     I sat in there with my legs folded close to my body as I hid my face and cried into my knees.  My hair was fallen in front of me to hide my face as I kept my head tucked in my legs.

     I heard foot steps coming towards me from where I came in from as I heard them stop in front of me, "Jess..?"  A voice says softly as he kneeled down in front of me, looking to me.

     "Are you OK Jess..?" He asks softly as he picked my head up and moved my hair, seeing the tears fall.  He sat down next to me and wipes my face from tears.  I shook my face as he sighed, "come on Jess, talk to me."

     I sighed as I looked to him, "I saw him holding Judith, a joy in his eyes and smiling, it just.. it made me so upset because I never had that.  My dad was never there for me, he'd come up to me every damn blue moon." I say as a tear fell as he wiped it as I looked down, "I just.. I couldn't."

     "That's not your fault, he left himself out on something amazing and worth wonders.  You're such an amazing person Jess, and I'm sorry that your dad couldn't realize it." He says softly as he wrapped his arm around me.

     I closed my eyes as I laid my head on his shoulder, "I just wish for better, I wish I had a better time growing up and actually had my dad," I sigh as I felt Carl rub my arm and hold me close.

     "You want to go back..?" He says softly, "I don't know, I don't think I want to see my dad.." I say softly looking up at him, "you do.  He wants to know you're ok," he says softly as he stood up and pulled me to my feet, "let's go." He smiles, "this first," I say softly as I pulled him into a passionate kiss as he placed a hand on my cheek and a hand on my waist as I held his cheek.

     We pulled away as I smiled, "come on," he smiled as we left the sewer and went above ground and made our way back to Carl's house, seeing my dad on the porch holding a glass of lemonade.

     I saw him put the glass down as he stood up as I went up the stairs.  "Carl go inside.  I want to have a person chat with her," he says as I saw Carl go in the house.

     I crossed my arms and leaned on he wooden, white railing looking up at him, "the hell was that temper tantrum?  I taught you better than that shit." He says staring down at me.

     I looked down, hesitant to say as I looked back up, "you were never there for me," I say as I look away not making eye contact, "what?" He asks confused.  "You were never there when I was growing up.  You would come in every now and then, and just leave.  You weren't there when I was a baby, and you just held Judith like she was your world." I say as I keep looking away at the street.

     "Jess, I wanted to be there, but I was with my wife, she didn't know about you until this started." He says leaning on the rail.  "Yeah.. because I'm not supposed to be here," I say softly with my voice trailing off, "don't ever say that Jessica.  You belong here," he says with a glare.  "No, dad.  I don't.  If you didn't cheat on your wife and didn't fuck around and have sex with my mom, I wouldn't be here!" I say standing up as I take a step back, "that's probably the way things should've been.." I say softer as I walk off the porch with my hands in my pocket.  "Jessica!  Get your ass back here!"  He yelled as I went into my house and grabbed my gun and knife, along with my bag and went to the wall that was near the back of my house.  I climbed the wall and went over it and disappeared into the forest.