Securing You (Little Gathering Series)

Chapter 14 - The Past And Present

Aries pov

I raise the revolver and point at him. I really want to kill him. I wanted his life for so long and with just I shoot I can get what I want. But why is this so painful..? Why it feel hurt in my chest..?

"Ari.. please. Don't do it." Choel is crying watching the scene.

"Don't do it Ari. " Tarnisha join in.

"Ari.." They call me so badly.

I see my friends are crying for me especially Choel. Choel never once left my sight. But I only see Leo. I only see him with his calm expression. I am ready to kill you.. and you still don't get it. Why are you this clueless..??

"Shoot me." Leo sudden demand.

"Leo..!!" This time Riono screams.

"Shoot me. You wanted my life right. Then shoot me." Leo demand again.

"Killing him will not bring back Ryan, Aries..!! Stop it.. just let it go." Choel screams again. Its really painful. She's crying badly she hurting herself. I can see her suffering. Her nightmare return.

"You don't know anything. You were blind by Austin. You forget about him. You forget My brother. He is my bother. My family.. My one and only family." I scream loudly and grip the gun even tighter.

"And he was my lover..!!!" Choel shout back as she kneel down the ground. "He was soon to be my family.. My happiness. I know Aries. I know its painful, I was as devastated as you. We mourning together, grief for his death. I did not forget about him. I just move on Aries. Stop this.. why are you killing Leo...!!"

Austin is shocks hearing our past but he still hug Choel tighter like before. He still care for her. Although I blame him because he married to Choel, he still doesn't change. His eyes still shine for her.

"Ari stop.." Silis crying even louder.

"Its doesn't have to be this way." Eiji talks to me.

"Ari.." Tarnisha cries too.

Why are they crying..? They didn't even know Ryan. I look at each of them but they all cover in tears. I understand if Choel crying but why are the other crying along. They never know about Ryan.

"Its your fault. Its all because of you." I look at Leo and bash on him. His expression doesn't change at all.

"Its not Leo fault." Choel shout again.

"It is..!! He didn't save him. He didn't even try. He was murder. Its all because of that stupid program. They targeted him. They wanted the disc but they kill my brother. And Leo didn't protect him. He let him die."

"I'm sorry.." Finally I see Leo painful expression.

"Finally you remember." I laugh in disbelief. Its funny to see his painful and pathetic face at the same time. But why does it hurt me seeing him in pain.

"Leo didn't let him die."Riono butt in making me glare at him. "He ---"

"Shut up Reifan. Or I'll kill you." I move the revolver in Riono direction and Eiji screams stoping me.

"He did go to save him. He is fighting along with him that time he was shoot and lay for days. He was as devastated as you. When he get the news Ryan was death, he lost his self control. He lifeless. Drink and drunk is the only thing he do for months. He's mourning, griefing and blaming himself because of it." Riono continue with out slightly fear over my warning.

"No.. that not true. I don't believe any of it. He is living just fine. He works, train, play and live on just fine. He even rebuilt The eyes and its a huge success." I block their reasons and explanation.

"Aries.. you know it yourself. He visit Ryan grave every year and cry for hours, blaming himself for his death. You saw it." Choel words pull me back to reality.

I trail back to Leo face. He is fighting badly to hold back his tears. Why does it hurt seeing him like this. I wanted his life but I can't bring myself to pull the trigger now.

"You didn't. You live just fine." I try to convince myself.

"I'm sorry.." Leo sound so weak and painful. His eyes full of suffering.

"Let it go." Choel beg despretely.

The revolver in my hold keep getting looser. I feel so weak griping the tool. I only see Leo. For 5 years I hack in his system observing him like some kind of lunatic, I was blind in my hatred, I just want to kill him. Now they are telling me I'm wrong. This is all bullshit.

"I'll kill you."

"Then kill me." He speaks confidently.

"Aries.." Choel scream

I pull the trigger slowly but his step stop me. He walks toward me step by step like giving me more opening to kill him.

"Aries.. don't." Choel scream again.

Why is he approaching me? Doesn't he afraid to die..? Then he smile. What is happening..?

"I'm sorry. I should have come sooner." What is he talking about..??He keep smiling its confusing me.

"Back off." I shout at him. Why did he smile. "Stay away from me. I'll shoot you."

"Isn't that what you want." He smirks.

What is this..? "Stay away or I'll shoot you."

"Then shoot me. What are you waiting for." He is getting closer and closer.

"I'll shoot---"

Before I could finish my sentence, he hold my gun. He looks straight in my face and smile. Why is he smiling?? Slowly, he lower my hand and take the gun from me.

"You let him die."

"I'm sorry." He apologize.

"He admire you so much its irritating listen to his story about you."

"I'm sorry." He lower himself to look at my eyes level.

"Everytime he came home, he only talked about you. Leo is nice, Leo help me to train, Leo treat me ice cream. He just talked about you everyday."

"I'm sorry." He hold on my shoulder.

"I hate you."

"I'm sorry." He pulls me in his chest.

Then the tears run down my cheek. Why does Ryan like this guy? I can't even shoot him because of Ryan word.

Leo is nice..

I let the tears stream freely and cry out loud. He stroke my back gently as I cry even more letting my emotion take over my body. For years.. I promise to kill him but now.. I just can't.