Securing You (Little Gathering Series)

Chapter 21- You'll Regret It

Leo pov

"If you want to kiss me, do it properly."

I pulled her to sat on my lap and she circle her hand around my neck. I'm not ready yet but she already crashed her lips on mine kissing me intensely. Gosh..

I hate myself for losing to my man desire. Damn..!! This is crazy.

Her hand trailed down start unbuttoning my shirt while kissing me wildly. She was on her third button the time I pushed her away before I lost self control.

"Stop it Aries. You'll regret this tomorrow." I stop her finger from touching me.

"No.. don't stop me. I want to kiss you." She struggled from my catch.

Shit..!! Fuck..!! Damn..!! Blame alcohol. She's becoming too savage.

"Aries.. stop. Its not ---"

She kissed me again cuting my sentence. Her wild kiss provoke my desire more as she hold me tighter. This is horrible. I flip myself pinning her on the couch. I can't do this. No..!! Absolutly can not. Ryan ask me to look after her.

"Stop it..!" I groaned frustratedly and distant myself away.

"I want to touch you." Her eyes was begging. Damn..! What's wrong with her.

"Control yourself Aries. You'll regret this tomorrow."

"I want to touch you. Let me touch you." She screamed all the sudden making my eyes widen.

"Never..! You better get your sense back before I fucking make you." I growled back.

"Leo.."

I was stun for a moment. That's the first time she call my name. Her face completely red because of the alcohol. She was sitting weakly across me, staring right in my eyes. I can't deal with her begging eyes.

"Shit..!!" I cursed myself.

"Let me touch you." She spoke in her small trembing voice.

I slided my palm down my face and sighed a big one.

"Why its too hot." She complained.

My eyes got even wider than its already have when she start to took off her cloth. I imediately stop her.

"Idiot..!!" I'm furrious.

I rolled down her shirt before she could took it off. She struggled a bit before gave up and dropped her face on my neck. Then she start crying. Now what..???

"Why are you so mean to me? I just want to touch you. That not much to ask for."

"No Aries.. you'll regret this."

"Just a little." Her fingers slipped into my shirt.

"No..!" I stop her again.

Then she cried even louder. I swear, I'll never let her touch even a drip of alcohol after this.

"My eyes only see you for 5 years. You're the only man I'm interested at. This is...not..fair.." She spoke between her painful sobbed and begging cried.

"What is not fair?" I'm damn clueless. Not only she became savage, she lost her intelligent too.

"Its not fair.." She repeated.

"What..!"

"I only see you but your don't even realize my existent."

For some reason that hit right on my bleeding heart. They said a drunk confess is an honest confess. I stroked her black hair gently trying to comfort her. Her cried slowly stop but she's still mumbling alot.

"I gave you many clues before but you still don't realize me."

"You want me to realize your presence?" I asked gently.

"I let you know my name but you didn't get it. I always look at you but you still didn't get it. I was in your system for years but you never get it. I hang out with Ed while you're with Reifan, but you're still too stupid to get it. Its not fair how I need your attention but you don't get."

Why did she speak like I hurt her alot? How can I realize it when she only try to kill me? This doesn't make any sense at all.

"You try to kill me Aries." I answered her in my disbelief tone.

"I did but not anymore."

"You hate me remember." I empharasized.

"Its all in the past." She burried her face on my neck again. "I was really happy spending time with you.. when we camp."

"Why?"

"Because you talk to me."

"I always try to talk to you but you hate me." I argued with the drunken girl.

"I don't hate you anymore." She looked up to me.

"So you like me now?"

"No.." She denied it making me frowned. "I think I'm in love with you."

She must have lost her intelligent completely. Yeah.. she must have. That's the only explantion to her insanity declare. Why she always gave me unbeliavable news?

"You love me?" I asked for comfirmation.

She nods. "But you only like me because I'm Ryan sister and that hurt. If I'm not Ryan sister, you'll just throw me away like how you deal with other girls."

"That not ---"

"Why? Why you can't like me as myself. Don't look at me as Ryan sister." She pleaded.

I didn't answered her. I can't do this. I shouldn't touch her either. I was attracted to her way before I know she is Ryan sister. I wanted to cure her pain and make her feel better.

"You don't like me?" She asked back.

I shook my head imediately.

"I think I love you." She repeated it again.

"Don't Aries. You'll regret it."

"But I really think I lo---"

"If you say it one more time, I'll lost self control. If I lost myself control I'll make you mine. And I prefer doing that with you sober not like this. Once you're mine, I'll never let you go." I hope she understand what I just told her.

We lost in our connected gaze like she was trying hard to absorb my words. I don't want her to regret this. She's drunk.. I don't want to take advantange on her.

"Make me yours then." Damn...!!! She driving me crazy.

"You better remember this. If you do not remember it.. I will remind you again. Until your damn head recall everything its killing you inside. I make you remember it till your last breath." I return her previous verse as I look her in her eyes searching for the truth.

"Do you understand me?" I asked her one last time.

"Yes sir."

I pinned her and this time I initiated the kiss. She was lossing in pleasure as my magic doing it works. She moaned and I wilden my kiss trailing all down her chest. I drift in the pleasure slowly losing my rationalities but she stop responding. So I look up but found her sleeping.

"You better remember this." I sound so weak afraid how this will affected our life tomorrow.

You are a freaking moron Leo...!! I cursed myself remembering what I just did. Ryan will kill me if he is here. I suppose to look after her, not seducing her. Damn..!! I hate myself.