Dawn

Chapter 22

To whom it may concern,

The morning after I left his house, I was determined not to talk to Chris.

I didn't want to see him.

I didn't even want to hear his voice. I felt like I was being played. I also felt dumb for actually thinking someone like Chris could want or even love someone like me.

He made it seem like I was something more than just one of those "special" kids. He made me feel like one of those girls in those movies who had it all.

Most may think I'm overreacting about what he said about us being friends with benefits but, he made me want more.

Part of this is my fault. It's my fault for forgiving him in the first place thinking he would change. It was my fault for being naive. I made the mistake in sharing my personal life with him.

Now he just wants to friends...

I hope he knows that I've changed in many ways ever since I met him.

The way I use to greet people and compliment them seemed to come to a stop when I noticed they didn't return the gesture.

I'm not as happy as I use to be but this isn't just his fault.

Ray took part in this as well, so did my mom and a few others.

Whether she agrees or not, I strongly believe he will ruin her if they get married.

She says she loves him but I feel like she's scared of him. It makes me look at love in a whole new light now.

What is love?

Why do people take it for granted?

Is love real?

If so, why haven't it found it's way to me?

I use to think I knew what love was, now I'm clueless and in need to know.

From someone who is in need of love...

-Dawn

I folded the paper in half and sat it on my dresser. My mom was off to work for the day so I would probably get away with not going to school.

It was 7:35, which is the time Chris usually leaves to go to school.

I glanced out my window and saw him walk out to his car. He eventually drove off after being on the phone.

My phone rung but I ignored it, no need for me to answer it anyway.

I headed out to my balcony and sat in some chair I forgot was up here.

Time began to fly by and before I knew it, it was 9:00.

I sighed and got up from my seat and leaned against the balcony.

Chris Pov.

Once I arrived to class, I sat beside Trey who was talking with his girl.

"Alright! Please get out your projects and turn them in I'm only accepting them today." The teacher announced.

I ran my hands over my face cursing myself out because I forgot this at home.

"Ms. Kyle how are you today?" I asked walking up to her desk.