Collide With the Flair of Selfish Machines

VII

(Y/N)'S POV

Within the next six months they had it. They were big. Fan girls...fan girls were everywhere. I was in love. I was in love with the lead singer of a big band...well one on it's way. They still had ways to go, but now they were national. I found so much love for myself. It probably was the jealousy from the girls that wanted him. It made me realize how much I was worth...maybe that's bad. It's crazy, this whole thing came from a party in high school. 

"Isn't this great?!" I yelled around the new tour bus. 

"This is so fucking amazing." Jaime was wonderstruck as he twirled around the big space.

"You're telling me." Tony smiled wide.

"I call this bunk!" Mike yelled as he laid down in his claim. I was sure we all simultaneously rolled our eyes at him.

"This is the beginning boys." Vic went up to Tony and Jaime and wrapped his arms around them. 

"It's so good." I repeated.

"Good enough to make me want to fall in love!" Vic wrapped his big arms around me.

I'd say that was the beginning of the end.

A FEW MONTHS LATER

They kept getting bigger and bigger. They were about to go on tour and I was so excited for them. Unfortunately, they were leaving me behind when they leave. Even though they were basically my family, I felt myself getting farther and farther away, as much as I felt I was recovering. Vic's big-headedness was getting out of hand. I only stuck with the shy Tony.

"Seriously, this is the best. We don't even have to travel from house to house anymore!" I looked at Tony as we watched television on the bus alone together. 

"It's really great." He blushed, his eyes never leaving the television. "I mean, it's not that easy, but it's half of the fun."

"No more cramped living rooms." I cuddled against him for warmth. He put his arm around me. This was good, this was normal. He's like a brother...a very inked brother.

"You got it!" He rested his head on mine, his lips touching my hair. 

I pulled up to begin my next sentence without knowing his lips were touching my hair. As I looked at him our lips collided. It was flat at first and both of us were shocked, but then Tony had to go and move his mouth. He was about to pull away, to release my mouth, but his temptation got the best of him. As Tony pulled away, something in him forced his lips back down on mine as his eyes closed softly. My eyes rolled back in my head and I moaned into his lips. His hand went to the back of my neck as our lips moved in unison. After we parted I stared at his snakebitten lips and he looked down into my eyes.

"S-sorry." He apologized.

"No...no. That was good. Just...let's never again." I blushed, hoping for another.

"Right." He let go of me and spaced out on the couch.

"Whew! It's hot!" Vic entered the bus loudly.

"Damn straight!" Jaime got on the bus after him. Tony rolled his eyes.

"I love that you guys are big now." I smiled sweetly. Vic glared at me.

"Yeah, real great." He said with attitude.

"Somehow it helped me get better!" I grinned wider. They boys smiled in response.

"Well, now that I'm a big star, fuck you and your new found love for yourself!" Vic stormed off the bus in anger.

"Vic!" I shouted after him.

The fight began outside. We batted heads at each other. That was...until I won. He realized he was being immature, but something felt off. He apologized and gave me affection, but it was reminding me of my father. 

"Why can't we just be friends?" He mumbled as he embraced me.

"Because you keep being a butt." I said into his shoulder, thinking nothing of what he just said.

Boy, we're just so close to fall out.