VIC'S POV
I was glad to see (Y/N) feeling happy again, but I couldn't help but fall into a relapse. I started cutting out without anyone knowing. It's been almost ten years since I last cut, before the bad started.
We were all discussing the next album to be made for 2014. Tony sat next to me and (Y/N) fiddled on her phone on the other side of me. My wrist was stinging badly. I pursed my lips and began rubbing it to make the pain fade.
"Are you okay, man?" Tony whispered to me as Jaime went on about a new song idea.
"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine." I lied. (Y/N) gave me a concerned look.
After the meeting was over she managed to pull me aside.
"I know that face, Vic." She bit her lip and flipped my wrist over while pulling up my sleeve. Her eyes widened.
"I know I'm supposed to be strong, especially for you, but I don't know how much longer I can." I shook my head, tears welling up.
"How long has this been going on?" She furrowed her brow.
"A while." I looked to the side to avoid eye contact. "You might as well separate me from my own two hands." I rolled my eyes this time.
"Vic, no." (Y/N) shook her head. "Come to bed with me." She pulled me along to our room.
That night I laid awake. I can't take it anymore. How much longer will this pain take up space in my brain? I got up and headed to the window. The night sky was lit up with stars for once. The city lights weren't blinding them. I could just self-medicate while she sleeps and die under these beautiful stars. It's a once in a lifetime chance because the city lights will make them disappear any other time. Does it even make a difference?
I looked down at the wrist that I used up. I could feel each individual scratch but the night hid the scars so it seemed like my skin was clear. It lightened my mood a little. I hated that I couldn't kill the creature in my head that won't die. I hate even more that I can't even kill her creature.
"Vic, I need you here." (Y/N) mumbled sleepily over to me. I sat on the end of the bed and thought of what to do next.
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Collide With the Flair of Selfish Machines
FanfictionEver since high school, you and Vic have had a thing for each other. After you two split, your past comes to haunt you and as it slowly destroys you...you and Vic find each other again, leading to forever after.
