Collide With the Flair of Selfish Machines

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VIC'S POV

(Y/N)'s health went nuts. She was good some days and horrible the next. The drugs destroyed her system and she needed a long time to recover. The doctor's induced her into a coma. I spent as much time with her as possible. This post-poned our success, but I need her to go on. The guys understood and we have our whole lives ahead of us. In the meantime I'm going to college for graphic design.

Jaime and Tony, including my brother, avoided me. I was so angry. It was constant. How could she think this way? I was getting tired of it. I needed her and she was being so...so selfish. I wanted to go with her if she couldn't come back. I just don't want to lose my best friend. It's not her time. It can't be. Oh my God, she's not going to make it.

Day in and day out I sat at her bedside and begged for her life. Doctor's came and went to check her vital signs. They always tell me that she'll wake up soon, but I haven't even seen an eye twitch.

"A few more days." A doctor came in a looked at the clipboard at the end of her bed.

"You said that three days ago." I sassed.

"I'm sorry, but she just needs to recover." He walked out the door. I sneered as he walked out the door.

"Wake up, I know you can hear me." I kissed her scarred wrist. She was still beautiful to me. Her eyes shifted from beneath her eyelids. My heart raced. 

"Hi." Her voice cracked, her beautiful eyes fluttering open.

"You're beautiful." I smiled crookedly, my eyes becoming glossy.

"Give me a break." (Y/N) mumbled. 

"You are." I promised her. "I never want it to be this way again. You hear me?" I gave her a serious look. She nodded weakly.

"Death is scary." She covered her mouth with the sheets.

"But if we die at the same time is it still scary?" I gave her a look.

"You...you mean, grow old together?" Her voice was shaking. I nodded and smiled.

"I think we could, ya' know. I love you so much." I blushed hard, feeling my face heat up.

"I don't know if I can put up with your bum for my whole life." She joked. 

"Go on, pretend like I don't entice you." I rose an eyebrow as (Y/N) gave a worried look. "Don't worry, baby. Our first time will be gentle and amazing and it will happen when you want it to." 

"Okay." She mumbled delicately. "So long as you don't take me for granted."

"I promise to love you forever. Stop scaring me like this." I gently scolded her.

"I'm sorry. I just feel I'm holding everything back." (Y/N) whispered. 

My heart was slowly breaking for her.