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oi listen to Be More Chill

Like seriously, it's all I've been obsessing over it for weeks. (My Spotify playlist started 2/12, but I listened to it before that (I think I knew it when PINOF came out))

Now kids, let me take you on a magical journey.

This all started with a Tumblr post. Little old me was just scrolling through happily, past the smut, past the aesthetic posts, past the rants, and stumbled across someone talking about this random song, called "Michael In The Bathroom". I had absolutely no idea what it was, and as a usual shy person to new music, I almost skipped straight past it. However, the next part of the post really caught my eye. It said something along the lines of "This song really captures that feeling of loneliness" and "I relate to this song way to much for it to be healthy". Obviously, me being the Edgy™ Teen that I am, was like "hey yo i need so much edge in my life im running out of depressing songs, lets try it out." Then went back to scrolling through random-ass posts. 
*A Few Hours Later* (Plz read in the Sponge-Bob voice) 
"Oh, shitz i need to listen to that edgy™ song, wat it called? Michael in the kitchen? In the Living room? Lmao just kidding xD, god im a loner. It called Michael in the Bathtub." So I click off the phan smut I was reading and went on YouTube™ and searched "Michael In The Bathroom". There I saw this sweet babe, MICHAEL MELL aka my dad: George Salazar looking like a fucking legend (when does he not tbh) and I clicked. 

And from there on, this song that I was hoping would improve my Edginess™ has literally ruined me. Every time I listen to this fuckin' song I cry, I feel more of my soul being ripped out (yes somehow I do have a soul) and I feel more sorry for my boi. As soon as the fucking piano begins, I fucking die. I listened to it on repeat, working myself up over it, crying about it. I couldn't concentrate in school because of this amazing song. I listened to it walking home, falling asleep, doing homework, everything. Then I went on Spotify and went to make a playlist, I typed Michael In The Bathroom in, and he(e)re came up this wonderful playlist "Be More Chill". I clicked on it, and 20 more songs appeared. I literally screamed, and read through them all. I saw new artist names, before I reached near the bottom, and my child was there. I put the song on and put both headphones in and put it on full blast. Like Jesus Christ does it sound amazing full blast you should try it. 
In one of my English lessons, we were allowed to have headphones on, so obviously I put my boi on. What I didn't realise was that it wasn't on repeat, and so when the Talented, Brilliant, Incredible, Amazing, Show Stopping, Spectacular, Never The Same, Totally Unique, Completely Not Ever Been Done Before, Unafraid To Reference Or Not Reference, Put It In A Blender, Shit On It, Vomit On It, Eat It, Give Birth To It (I really hope you get that and I don't just sound like a weirdo) song faded out, and More Than Survive came on, I knew I was in for an emotional rollercoaster. Then The Pants Song came on, and then (The Bitch™) Christine (I only don't like her because she made Jeremy fall in love with her (even though she technically didn't) and then Jeremy took the SQUIP and was horrible to Michael (who is NOT a FUCKING LOSER) started singing.

All of the songs are literal gold, and I feel like I can say that after listening to them this much of the past month, so FITE ME. 

I found like the only bootleg of bmc on YouTube, and from this I have been trying to learn dances to Two Player Game (which is in my opinion the second best day), and to More Than Survive (also high in my list), and I can do most of it so I'm fucking Edgy™.
Michael's part in More Than Survive is so cute, his little kicking is just fucking adorable (gay) and overall he's just adorable. Fucking fight me you don't understand how much I fucking relate to him. His little "plane" dance in More Than Survive at the end is so cute oml. I would love to rant but moviNG ON.

I've gone into the fanfics... Fucking murder me. There is so good ass fluff and smut written about Jeremy and Michael. I've read this fucking amazing fanfic on ao3 called Game Over (https://archiveofourown.org/works/12108180?view_full_work=true) and it's amazing and I love it cuz of the mix of emotions and shit. Lmao I would be such a good reviewer wouldn't I "mix of emotions and shit", Jesus...
This little obsessed caused me to save over 100 pictures of bmc things and put them all as much background on my computer. And also for me to re-discover Heathers, and actually finally listen to Dear Even Hansen songs, because like I said I'm a massive wimp with new music, so it was a shock when I loved bmc so much. I used to listen to Heathers when I was sat in church with my sister, with one headphone each. I didn't understand what any of the songs meant, but I enjoyed singing and tapping along to them, so I did. Dead Girl Walking was my fav, and funnily enough I used to think at like 8 years old that I wanted to be like Veronica (dead). Candy Store was also a favourite of mine, and I used to always laugh when Heather Chandler said biotch, because obviously that was hilarious at 8 in a church while my parents sang some dumb Christian song. 

And finally, my favourite songs from Be More Chill in order:

1. Michael In The Bathroom
2. Two Player Game
3. The Pants Song
4. More Than Survive
5. The SQUIP Song 
6. The Pitiful Children
7. The Play
8. Voices In My Head
9. Halloween
10. Be More Chill - Part 1/2
11. Upgrade
12. The Smartphone Hour (Rich Set A Fire)
13. Be More Chill Reprise
14. A Guy That I'd Be Into
15. The SQUIP Enters
16. Jeremy's Theme
17. Do You Wanna Ride?
18. The SQUIP Lurks
19. I Love Play Rehearsal 
20. Do You Wanna Hang?

So, yeah. That's my list from top to bottom. 
And yes, I have written all this listening to Michael In The Bathroom, and no, I'm not sorry.

ANYWAY, It's like 3 days until the big C now and I'm excited! I've been listening to more bmc than Xmas music this month, but the past year I've been listening to a lot of Xmas music, especially in August, and I don't know why, but that kinda makes up for it I guess. 

What y'all getting for the big C my lads? 

Anyways, yeah I'll go now. 

...It's From Japan...