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What Are You So Scared Of?

Depends how deep you want to go, if you're talking everyday fears, then probably just achluophobia (Fear of the Dark) and Astraphobia (Fear of Thunder and Lightening) and yes I did have to search those. The only thing is though, I'm only sometimes scared of the dark. Weird yeah, but I can handle like when it's 2am and I'm awake in my room, or walking home in the dark with dim lights on. However, I can't handle when you're in the middle of a random place and it's pitch black, or when I want upstairs and it's just all dark, it feels like something is going to jump out at me and scare me. As for the Astraphobia thing, I can't stand it, and as weird as it sounds, I think I learnt it off my old dog. Before you call me insane (probably too late but whatever), let me explain. When I was little I had a dog called Poppy and whenever there was a thunderstorm she would be in my room, under my bed, and hide. So yeah. That's why I think I'm so scared of thunder and lightening.

But, if you want to go deeper then this is it:

I'm scared of death, and living, being by myself for the rest of my life, being forgotten by the most important people to me, having someone important die, even if I haven't met them (YouTubers that are important to me). I feel as if I'm scared of such weird things. 

The weirdest thing to me though, is this:  

I'm afraid of supernatural things. And I don't even believe in them.  As I said before, I'm only sometimes scared of the dark. If I walk upstairs to go to bed and all the doors are open and it's dark, it makes me freak out and think about like slender or fnaf characters or evil Sonics and Sally (Thanks DanandPhilGames) appearing at the door. I mean yeah it's Dan and Phil's fault, but also mine for forcing myself to watch the whole thing through.  Oh well... 

My imagination will also just create this weird mythical creature and scare me before I go to sleep.  Thanks Brain. 

There is this one thing I tend to be scared of this time of year (no matter how many times I go through the same thing), and it's going back to school. Like yeah, I get no-one ever really wants to go back, but I HATE  human interaction. Literally everyone who knows me well knows this.  I can't stand staying with someone I don't know well for longer then around 3 seconds. Which therefore makes it highly difficult to go out by myself or buy something even if someone is with me. ANYWAY, getting back to the point! Throughout school in lessons, I put up this barrier to other people (not including friends and some teachers) and force myself into this act of 'good girl' not talking and doing most of my work. Then at break and lunch, I put it down and act how I want, swearing with almost every sentence and making inappropriate jokes. I'm scared of getting told off though, because in Primary school I cried because a teacher in Year 6 came in and shouted at the class, yes I was that child, still was in Year 4, when the head teacher came in and shouted at the class because we (I say was but not me and a few others) weren't listening and again, I cried. I've stopped being that person now, don't worry (Although I still hate shouting). 

People in school (friends) will know what I mean, because I act happy and laugh and talk at break and lunch, but then it turns to lessons and I become this shy person who doesn't like talking in lessons, asking for help. Even my R.E teacher, my fav, I can't talk to properly or be myself around.
One of the reasons I don't talk that much is because I don't want to draw attention, yet by not speaking that's what it does. smh really annoying.

*In Creepy Dan Voice* But what do you think, leave your fears in the comments for everyone to judge....

But yeah, tell me what your scared of, and of you have any suggestions tell me and I'll probably make it.

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