You're A Cnut | Tsukishima x Reader

17

"We need to talk."

That sentence wrecked havoc in Tsukishima's brain. His thoughts became suddenly jumbled and he was unable to form a a sentence properly for a few seconds. He stared at you slightly unnerved at your outburts, though at the same time he felt giddy. 'In case she likes me' is what he thought.

In his mind he was trying to think of the perfect thing to say as to not come across as a dick. He didn't want to mess up a chance to talk with you alone.

'Don't say anything stupid. Don't say anything stupid. Don't say anything stupid.' 

"Isn't that what we're doing now?" he asked, signature smirk on his face.

'Fuck fuck fuck fuck.'

You blinked at the blonde before you, slightly annoyed at his immature response when this was clearly something of importance to you.

"Right." you scoffed at him. Your hands began to shake a little and your throat suddenly felt a lot tighter than usual, most likely a sign to shut up and never speak to the blonde again. Despite the small warning signs, you ignored them. "I h-have something to, uh...te-tell you." you told him, rushing your words as you looked at him.

He raised an eyebrow at you and nodded his head as a signal to carry on.

"Right, well I guess I like you, and I don't mean as fr-friends, I mean I li-like you, um...romantically? That, I g-guess. I, uh, sorry if this is a problem, I hope it's not." you confessed to him, your focus now shifting to the floor. It was very interesting. "It's ok if you don't feel the same. I-it'd be great if you did. Oh, and s-sorry for telling you in the least ro-romantic, uh, way possible, but there you go haha. I like you." you told him, finally looking at him once more.

His ears were red and his cheeks dusted a light pink. You hoped this was because he too felt the same, though you were most certain it would have been because he was embarassed. He coughed a little awkwardly into his hand and looked at you.

Your face was painted red and he could see you nervously fiddling with your fingers. 

'Don't mess this up. Don't mess this up. Don't mess this up.' he screamed at himself in his head as he went to speak.

"Oh, okay."

'OH OKAY?! YOU IDIOT.' he screamed.

He cringed at his own answer slightly as he watched for your reaction. 

Your eyebrows knitted together and your face formed a frown once you realised he wasn't going to add anything else. Looking at the ground you gave hima curt nod. 

"Yeah...uh well sorry. I'll just leave you alone." you told him as you began to walk past him to find some people to hang out with as a means to distract you from how you were feeling.

When the words came out of his mouth, it was like you had been punched in the throat, heart and stomach all at the same time. You became annoyed at yourself for letting yourself think telling him would have been a good idea. You were also miffed with Kuroo and Bokuto for telling you that Tsukishima liked you. They were clearly wrong, judging by his reaction and answer.

As you walked past him, he noticed how your hands were clenched into fists and how you had clenched your jaw. He was upset with himself for reacting in such a way, but he just didn't know what to say without coming across and vulnerable. In a split second decision, he reached out and grabbed your wrist, pulling you to a halt.

Turning to look at him, you frowned. "What? I've wasted your time with a pointless confession, and now you're wasting mine."

His eyes flashed with hurt at your words, and he hated himself even more for how he handled your confession. Pushing his glasses up his nose ever so slightly, he stared into your (e/c) eye's noting how they were wet with ghosting tears.