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Merry Christmas!

So here I'm just going to talk about a few things, I may be stupid for going on about something like this to you guys but you all are practically my family!

It's Christmas, and this year I've been through a lot of crap. Cutting, relationship issues. The list goes on and on.

What had happened a few months ago was, I guess you could call it puppy love but I had strong feelings for one of the only guy friends I had. We had dated in the past but it was more of a joke than anything real.

My best friend apparently went from hating him to loving him in days. I couldn't stop what was about to happen next, and he had asked her out. Leaving me with a shattered heart.

That night I was on the phone with that friend, hearing about that news. It had been a while since I had last cut but after hearing that I couldn't stand it any longer. I couldn't tell her.

In this position, I almost felt like Angelica. How in Satisfied, she sees Alexander and is in love with him but she then sees Eliza has fallen in love with him too.

In the end, Angelica gave up her love so Eliza could be happy.

That's what I had done for my friend, she had deserved happiness but as their relationship goes on to this day.. It seriously kills me inside every time I hear her say his name.

It had gotten to the point that she's fully obsessed with him and all conversations will not go without speaking of him.

I can't force a smile, but for this I have to. When I come home, I feel as if cutting is my only way out of the hell i have to put up with.

It's a lot of pressure to go through when I have cheering competition to worry about, my studies and a month vacation next year.

This year, I had come back to Wattpad. The place where I could read my worries away.

The place where I felt loved by someone, which was sadly a fictional character from another fandom.

A lot of people can agree, why can't that person be real?

They make our lives more happier and let us forget the hell of a day we had.

Now, I finally will wrap this up. I have been talking for far too long.

If you are someone you self-harms yourself. Try, try, and try to find a way to stop. There will always be that one who will make your life the best thing in the world. And you shouldn't throw that away.

Although I can't say the same thing for myself, we all need to find that happiness that is somewhere in this world. Waiting for your arrival.

As Christmas is here, depending on when you read this, it also means the year is coming to a close. A time where we reflect on what has happened during that year.

Good things, bad things, all of the things we remember. I'm honestly so glad to have started this.. book? It's something! I will forever be grateful for all the nice and funny things you all have said in the comments.

I read a lot of them, and usually laugh my butt of. I wonder.. How do my stupid stories make this person think about that?

I'm so glad we have made it this far, 10k reads!!! This makes me more than joyful to see that, and I cannot thank you all so much.

I promise, and I mean it to get chapters out as soon as I can. I want to keep this book updated but also focus on my school and cheering life.

Thank you once again and I'll jump back into the conclusion of my rant.

Things will get better, no matter how long it will take you need to keep pushing on to make it to the finish line. We can do it, you can do it.

Have a very Merry Christmas everyone.

Until next time. From Kirsten.