confessions to jake

chapter one

~26th May~

Dear Jake,

Today I didn't go to school mainly because I'd rather die but then again, I'd choose death over just about anything. Interesting way to start a first letter,right? I'm quite aware that this isn't what you'd expect and you may or may not be afraid of me. I've never understood why people fear the suicidal and depressed, I find them intriguing in a way even though I'm also suicidal and depressed I'd like to see my view of the world from another point of view if that makes any sense. I have this horrible dizziness that surrounds me every time I get up which gives me another reason not to and that isn't necessarily a bad thing but I really should tell someone about the dizziness, I already have enough on my plate and I really don't need cancer to top it off