confessions to jake

chapter fourteen

~7th July~

Dear Jake,

I've been having a rough time lately and I know that's no excuse to stop writing to you but I feel that I just needed a break. I just lost my best friend and I'm trying to "find myself" whatever that means and I was hoping you'd help me figure it out which I bet you would if you were here but it's fine I guess, I hope you're watching over me wherever you are.

Lately I've been barely leaving my room and avoiding any type of social interaction, I think it's probably because most people are just plain exhausting and they're hard to keep conversations going with. Not to mention the fact that anyone and everyone who enters my life will eventually leave, so why spend time on them when I'm just going to end up alone? After enough experience on getting my hopes up on people and just watch them leave I finally taught myself not to get attached to people and more importantly, moments because good or bad they all fade away.