confessions to jake

chapter three

~28th May~

Dear Jake,

Today my mom's performing but I can't go because it's in a night club and I'm not 18 yet but hell,I'd rather write to you,or die. I've reached the point where either works but thank god I have music to get me through this. Just like Alex Turner once said,which to be frank makes me think more than it should "There is always that band that comes along when you're 14 or 15 years old that manages to hit you in just the right way and changes your whole perception of things." Jake you probably already know how much music has helped me from the way I smile with my head phones on and how that's as close as I'll ever get to a real one, but the thing about what Alex said that makes me think so much is what if our whole purpose in life is to find a band like that and give them the power to change us. Maybe that's the real showing of strength, letting something change you and becoming vulnerable enough to be changed. What if our entire purpose of suffering for so long is to give not just a band, but anything the power to change us and all we have suffered afterwards would have been for naught. I really wish I could finish this letter, I really do I just can't seem to find a way.