Love On His Sleeves

Do U Dirty

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Jonathan's POV

On my way home I realized I hadn't seen Antwan.

Making a detour, I pull into his drive way and make my way to his front door when Tee pulls up and walks up with bags of Chinese food.

What's up Jon, is he alright? He asked looking worried.

I don't know I just got here myself. I said taking a bag from him.

Thanks for grabbing just one bag, it helped a lot, he said laughing.

I'm sure I said knocking on the door.

The door opens and Mrs. Robinson smiles opening the door.

Hey baby, your mother was worried sick about you. Where did you go she asked me moving me into the house. Hey Tee, she said with a tight lip smile.

Hey Mrs. Robinson, I brought Chinese, Antwan's favorite. He said he was hungry so I figured you all were too. Is he alright, he asked looking sad and to blame.

Yeah he's upstairs, but let me talk to you for a minute. Jonathan do you mind going up and checking on that boy?

I smiled, left and dashed up the stairs. Because I knew that I wanted no part in whatever that conversation is about.

When I got upstairs I heard music playing inside his room, so I open his door and I find Antwan on FaceTime shaking his ass!

WTF, he yelled... closing his Mac book.

I just stood there like a deer, caught in front of headlights.

We stare at one another, and I look from side to side. Where's you just...?

Jonathan, just shut the fuck up. Where the hell were you earlier anyway? I see where my fake friends weren't.

Oh honey, don't do me. I was there, as you know. But something came up and I... it's a long story I'll tell you later. But damn you just have one plot twist after another don't you, I asked looking at him then to his laptop laughing.

Closing his laptop he looks over to me with a mean mug. No..... we can talk about it now. He said. Where were you when I really needed my friend? He asked trying to change the subject from him.

Shaking my head I grunt. Well if you have to know Shawn went crazy kidnapper on me and Samir came to save the day.. Again.

Damn... I know you don't want to hear it right now.. but shit there's a lot I don't want to hear after going to jail.... But Mir loves you, and I know the way he handled things was dumb but at least he's trying now. Let him back in..

Seriously, I asked looking at him.

Yeah seriously Jonathan, if I can admit my shit then you should too. I mean here I am helping you and I'm the one who went to jail.

Ha. But that's the thing, I didn't ask for your help. I came here for you but it looks like you have already been helped, I said pointing at his laptop.

Whatever fuck you. He said trying to move past me.

Uh huh... who was that I must know, especially considering how everyone just loves to be in my business and tell me the decisions I should make. IM LITERALLY FUCKING TIRED OF IT! I've been through this enough with Rob and now Samir, fuck no I won't go through bullshit anymore.

With big eyes he grabs my arms, and I push him off and head down stairs to find Tee walking up.

What's wrong he asked with a confused/disturbed face.

Nothing just move.

Well bye to you too, Tee said heading up the stairs. I know he didn't do anything but I flicked him off.

Y'all are always fighting, Antwan's mother said from the bottom of the stairs. Come here baby..

I walk towards her and she smiles while consoling me.

Everything will work itself out, just know that okay. Between you and Ant I don't know who's more protective of the other. Believe it or not you both were like that when you were little.

I smiled and nodded my head. Yeah I guess we're both just stubborn.

I run back up stairs and open Antwan's door to see Tee at the edge of the bed shaking his head lookin hurt. While Antwan has his arms crossed leaning on the wall. I look up to him and he gives me a knowing look.

What the fuck just went down..... I thought to myself.

I can come back... I said walking backwards out the room.

No.. Antwan says. He was leaving you can stay.

Tee stands up and looks at Antwan and try's to walk towards him, but Ant just moves out the way.

I'm sorry.. I really am, I'll do anything, Antwan says with sadness in his eyes. I love you.

Just please go, I can't do this drama bullshit. It's too much. Go, just go. Antwan said waving Tee off with his hands.

I just stood there taken for a loop, I thought this was about the webcam incident but realized that was because of Tee involving him in bullshit.

I step aside to give Tee space, and he walks towards my way and turns around to give Ant a quick kiss then leaves.

We stood there silently as he left the house and pulled out the driveway.

I looked over at him and he looked un-phased, confident in his decision.

I sit on his bed, and look at him gasping for the right words to say.

I didn't tell him about the webcam...

I know, I said with a straight smile. I understood what was happening and for whatever reason, you did what you had to do. I just want you to be happy, healthy, but most importantly safe.

He smiled and sat down next to me, and hugged me.

"Same for you, for the time that I was back there I just couldn't help but think why I was in that situation. I mean yeah I like him, but I should have seen all the red flags. From Darius and his sister, to the secret text messages and phone calls. I just felt cheated, taken advantage of and stupid," Antwan said. "When you walked in on me I felt so guilty because I saw you judging me."

I wasn't judging you Ant, I was just shocked.

He smiled and chuckled, you were judging me and thats okay. Your my best friend.

I nodded my head and let him finish.

He picked his head up and wiped small tears from the corner of his eye. "I honestly just wanted to get back at him, or at least feel like I was getting back at him. And when he came up here I saw what I had to do... No revenge, no anger, just release. I had to let him go."

I smiled after he said that because it made me think about my past relationships and how I haven't really gotten over Rob, and how that may be the root of my problems with Sam.

Are you listening to me Antwan asked.

I laughed yeah, it's just your realization made me have one as well.

How I may have jumped the gun with Samir, and dealing with my real issues with Rob.

"Yeah, we wondered when you would realize that,"Antwan said. "Samir loves you... and the only thing that's standing in the way is your own grief. He isn't the type to do you dirty. I think your guard is up to prevent that from happening like it did with Rob. Just don't do him dirty.

I looked over to him and smiled. Just like you with Tee?

Throwing a pillow at me he laughed, that's not funny fool.

But what happened with you and Shawn?

Rolling my eyes, I fell on the bed. I did him dirty.....

Antwan laughs... BITCH!!!