Love On His Sleeves

For You I Will

Jonathan's POV

Sitting on the couch at this party Eric was throwing all I can think about is Samir and how I royally fucked up everything. It also caught me by surprise that everyone was here, between Alyssa and Imani, there was both Shawn and T who were both avoiding me. I just rolled my eyes and got up. As I approached the kitchen I ran into Eric who was smiling.

What are you smiling at fool? I asked shaking my head. He nodded and smirked. "The fact that this party is lit, there's no drama between everyone and the fact that I'm also about to go up stairs and... he starting raising his eyebrows and I shoved him in the chest. Oh don't be jealous Jay... you had your chance," he said pinching my cheek. I laughed shaking my head. Boy bye! get a grip but be safe I said walking into the kitchen. I chilled in their for a bit talking to different people when Samir walked in with Tee right behind him laughing. We made eye contact and I could tell he was hot that a guy was all in my face capturing my attention, and that alone made me red in the face because all I want is to talk to him. He gave me a neutral head nod and kept walking through the kitchen and outside to the back of the house. My eyes followed him all the way out and the guy in front of me traced my face with his hand, pulling my focus back to him and I smiled. I have to go, nice meeting you.

Quickly making my way to the backyard Imani cut me off from my path to Samir and I sighed. "We need to talk," she said crossing her arms. Yes we do but can it wait please? I asked pointing my eyes in Samir's direction. She looked back in his direction then turned back to me and said no it can't, pulling me back into the house and upstairs to a quite room.

Check you friend, before I do. I swear I have no problem beating a bitches ass, she said rolling her neck. I just looked at her shaking my head smiling.

"It's not funny Jonathan I'm tired of the looks and the petty whispering. All over a nigga who..." she stopped while shaking her head.

Who what? I asked squinting my eyes out of curiosity. Nothing it really doesn't matter. Just check her. And what the hell did I just save you from? Because talking to Samir is not a good idea right now.

Why wouldn't it be I asked. I miss him and I want to apologize for everything. Maybe after that we can at least be friends.

Because she said.. that wound is still too fresh for both of y'all, just give it time trust me. She said rubbing my shoulder. I do trust you but I'd rather lick my wounds again afterwards if that means there's a 50% chance he will talk to me again I said jumping up to find Samir.

When I headed back outside to find him I see some guy with his hand on Samir's thigh smiling all in his face while listening to what Samir was saying.

I don't know what took over me but I started to swiftly walk over in there direction when yet another person cut me off. "Jonathan man whatever you think you're about to go over there and do, just please calm down. He's just talking to the guy and..." I brushed past Tee and ended up hovering over Samir and the guy while Samir looked up at me with a surprised look, the guy was smiling. I don't know if it was because he sensed I was mad or what but Samir swatted the guys hand off and stood up.

We stood there for 10 seconds staring at each other without uttering a word, before the guy stood up giving a tight lip smile. I'm going to get a drink you want anything Mir? He asked as Samir shook his head no, without breaking eye contact.

I let out a sigh shaking my head when he finally spoke. "You know you can't be mad." And why is that 'Mir' I asked with my arms crossed.

Because we... I stopped him before he could finish his statement. You let me go, I didn't want to end anything remember that. Now I see you talking to some second rate version of me? Please just tell me you don't want to be in a relationship with me. It's literally easier then the shit you filled my head with when you broke up with me. Do you love me? I asked as I felt a tear fall from my cheek. Because that's what... before I could complete my sentence he pulled me into his arms and kissed me.