Alone

Awakening

Adriana's POV

My heart stopped. With water filled eyes I realized my mate. My beautiful Jax had come for me. Yes, I had been through a lot. I have had some seriously screwed up emotions these last few weeks. But here in front of me, right here, right now, this is my mate. My perfect half.

I stood in shock, my brain wasn't processing what I was feeling. My soul, my heart knew he was here, but my brain wasn't comprehending what was happening around me. Before my eyes hell was breaking loose. Jax, my beautiful Jax was a beautiful beast in this moment. I tore myself away, realizing I was far too close to the fight, it would do me no good to get in their way. I'd only hurt myself. This is something I can't settle for them.

I hurried to tree. It had fallen and I could walk up it until I reached a climbable branch. I grabbed it and climbed. My favorite childhood had activity had turned into something much different than it was when I was a child. The same underlying reason though, is still the same; to get away from my problems.

I turned off my brain as I climbed. Tuning out the sounds of paws hitting the pine needle floor, the growls and grunts meant to intimidate the other, the heart wrenching noise caused by snapping jaws. All I could do was see, smell, and feel. No thoughts crossed my mind, no noises invaded my bubble. Just me and the smell of the branches before my eyes. Me and the smell of the deep woods. Me and the slightly damp bark beneath my fingers.

Branch.

Moss.

Bark.

Brown.

Green...

Nothing.

I was falling. That quickly it all stopped. My heart. My mind. My world. It all stopped. A gasp left my throat. A sign of shock as I realized I now only had a few moments to live. It was a good life. I managed to meet my mate, hate him, find another man. Then for some fantastic reason, I got him back. For that brief moment I was Damien's again. Wether or not I was in his arms, my mind belonged to him again.

I could hear paws somewhere in the back of my mind. The fight was still going on. They wouldn't realize I was dead until it ended. I would like right where I fell until the dust settles and they look for me.

And just like that. I hit the ground. Black.

My eyes opened and I was alone. I looked to left, right. One circle, another. Nothing. Just black. My chest tightened. My eyes watered. I can't be alone again. They're always taken from me. Mom, Dad, Damien, Ross, Darcy.

What a small life. Five people, my whole world, my entire life has been five people.

Sheltered.

Hidden away from the awful pains of the world. Tucked away on the highest shelf, out of reach from anyone that could break me. Until one day, the shelf broke. The very thing I was placed upon to keep me safe is what made my fall so catastrophic. Being tucked away, that is biggest mistake of my life. I fell. And I fell hard.

I fell hard.

I fell hard.

"Wake up. For God's sake all I'm asking is that you wake up," it was him.

Him.

My Damien.

My eyes fluttered open and I was face to face with beauty. Breathe taking, heart stopping beauty. Everything that I've had to live for was right in front of me.

... But yet, I didn't feel complete.

Ross. Where was Ross.

My sweet Ross.

I looked around and held on to Damien's hand to comfort myself. He was no where to be seen. No where. I felt at my neck, why do I still feel like I'm his? Damien is with me. Damien is mine. My mate. Why do I feel like Ross's?

Damien grabbed my hand and pulled it away from my neck. Tears dripped down his cheeks, "I couldn't claim you again. You're too weak. It would've killed you. You needed all the strength you had to make it. You fell from a tree four stories high. Jax and I did all we could to save you from falling, but we were late. Too late. You hit and the fall punctured a lung, broke your arm, and gave you a concussion. I'm so sorry. I should've been there. I should've had my eyes on you and not him. It's my fault. Baby I'm so sorry I couldn't take care of you like you deserve."

He was balling. The strong, beautiful, caring alpha was crying his eyes out over me. Over me. A runt. A runt that fell in love with another man.

He still loves me.

I know y'all probably don't want to hear my excuses, but I'll give it to you anyway. See this book, I published the first chapter on the day me and my (now) boyfriend went on our first date. Well he's now moving three states over. I've known it's been coming for a long time. Since before we started dating they were thinking about selling their house and moving.

Well now... He's leaving on April the 27th. Since I heard the news there has been absolutely no romantic thoughts in my head. Nothing really happy or creative has been flowing. All I've been thinking about is how sad it'll be. How much I'll cry when he actually leaves. Call me a hopeless romantic but that's what writes the books.

Sooo... The point is, I'm sorry it's taken so long. I'm just starting to come to terms with it, but as things get closer to the date I have no idea how I'll handle it.

But no matter what I love you guess and thank you all for the support and the comments encouraging me to come back. Thank you all.