There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter Five

Jessica's POV

I woke up with Logan's head on mine and his arm around me. I didn't wanna wake him up but I really needed to go to the bathroom. I tried to wake him up but he kept groaning saying " 5 more minutes". It was cute but I still needed to go to the bathroom.

"Logan.. Logan.. Logan.." I whispered. After that seemed to not wake him up, I managed to put my nose on his neck and that seemed to work cause he woke right up. First he kissed my on the forehead then stretched.

"Are you alright?" He said. Damn his morning voice was really attractive.

"Yeah I'm good I just really need to go to the bathroom." I said as I kissed his cheek.

" Well you know where it's at." He said with a smirk on his face.

" Well it was kinda hard to go with you laying on me." I said rolling my eyes.

"Girl don't roll your eyes at me." He said starting to smile with a devious look on his face.

"Or what?" I stuck my tongue out at him. I stood up and threw a pillow at him and he got up and chased after me. I ran into the bathroom and locked the door. Both of us laughing.

" You can't stay in there forever beautiful." I could tell he was smiling when he said it.

I tried to brush my hair and my teeth while I was in the bathroom but it was impossible so I kept trying. I thought Logan had walked away so I let out a very loud "UGH". I could hear him scrambling from the couch to the door.

"Is everything okay Jess?" He sounded worried. I unlock the door with my brush in my good hand with a disappointed look on my face. "It'll get easier babe I promise. Let me help you." He said. It took my mind a second to process it. But DID HE JUST CALL ME BABE?! It made me blush and he could tell because I was as red as a tomato.

" Too far?" He questioned.

" I don't know I just wasn't expecting it. You do know I have goals for relationships right?" I said.

"Like?"

"Like holding my hand, cuddling, asking me out on dates, actually going on dates. I'm pretty simple when it comes to dates. I don't need anything fancy or special because that's not what a relationship is. It's about two people who want to know more about each other and want to grow together and protect each other." I said. The last part brought a smile to his face. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pecked my lips.

"Jessica, will you go on a date with me?" He asked and started to blush.

"I would be insane to decline. Of course!" I replied. Kissing his cheek. We just kinda stood there for a solid minute staring at each other and then he pulled me even closer to him giving me a tight hug. "Jessica it might be too early for it but... I love you." He said looking down to see my expression. "I love you too, Logan." He could barely hear me say it back because my face was basically in his chest. I pulled out of the hug and repeated it. " I love you too, Logan" I said this time unmuffled. His dimples showed and it made me blush.

I sat in the floor in front of the couch in between Logan's legs so he could brush my hair since I couldn't. I learned very quickly there was a lot of things I can't do without his help. While he was brushing my hair his phone rang. It was Kendall. The Kendall Schmidt. He took a break and wrapped his arms around my neck and set his head on top of mine.

" Hey bro what's up!" Logan said. It sounded like he asked him how he was holding up but I'm not sure.

"I'm good just sitting here with my favorite girl." He said. I don't think he could see but I turned into a literal tomato. He just told his best friend that he was sitting with his favorite girl. Before I realized it he had seen how red I was and kissed my cheek. " Yeah dude we could meet up if you want to meet her." I whipped my head around and my jaw dropped. He winked at me. Other words were exchanged then he hung up and continued my hair.

" How would you like to meet Big Time Rush?" He asked.

" Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa... I thought you were just talking to one other person. Not three!" I said as anxiety took over my body.

He finished brushing my hair and helped me out of the floor and onto the couch. With the usual setting my head on his shoulder blah blah blah. He was running his hand through my now brushed hair and kissed my head. " Don't freak out about it babe I'll be right next to you. There's nothing to be worried about." He said. What's weird about it is it actually calmed my anxiety and made me relax. "We're going to meet them at 6 and it's 2 you want to start getting ready?" He asked. Knowing what he meant because it's going to take forever for me to get ready cause I need his help with everything.

He went and took a shower and got what he was wearing ready so he could help me get ready. I was really confused how he was going to help me shower and I was really embarrassed. So I called Aubrey and Logan buzzed open the gate so she could come in and help me with the bathing and makeup stuff.

"Aubrey I don't know what I'm going to do when you're not here and I need to shower." I complained. As I was getting out of the shower.

"Looks like you'll have to get Mr.Dimples to help you out." She said and winked at me.

"Aubrey! It's not like that. I don't like him like th-" I interrupted my own words with the thought of maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I mean it is Logan we are talking about.

"Honey, are you sure you don't like him like that. Because you're as red as a tomato." She giggled.

"I just got out of the shower duh. And I honestly don't know. He's super sweet, kind, loving, cute, and protective." I said it. Out loud. He made me feel protected, safe. I don't know why I still can't grasp the fact that Logan wants to date me. I love him and he says he loves me. I don't know what my problem is.

" Well you're all ready to go to your date with BTR!" She said as she laughed.

"Ugh. I told you it's not like that." I roll my eyes.

Aubrey left a few minutes ago and Logan came and knocked on the door to see if I was ready.

" Jess? Are you read-" he cut off his own words. He was staring me with his mouth open at a complete loss of words.

"Earth to Logan!? Earth to Logan!? EARTH TO LOGAN!?" I said trying to snap him out of the daze he was in. He walked over to me put his hands around my waist and gave me a really tight hug. When we pulled away from each other he pulled me back in to kiss him. Except this time was different. Instead of partially letting him down and rejecting I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. I can't keep letting my trust issues that Jason caused me get in the way with Logan. He saved me from that monster. I loved Logan, I have to stop denying it.