There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter 23

A Week later...

Logans POV

I flew to Seattle to clear my head a little about the breakup. My heart physically hurts. I really want to cut on my old phone and call her to hear her beautiful voice. I want to fly home and wrap her in my arms. But I would be aborting my mission of finding myself. I just got off my plane that landed in Las Vegas. I have a couple of guys that helped produce some BTR albums here that wanted to show me around. I put my beanie and sunglasses on and walked to baggage claim to collect my things, my phone buzzed and it was a text from my buddy. I read his text and put my phone back in my pocket and walked to his car outside.

"Hey, bud! I haven't seen you in a while! How are you?" He asked and my heart dropped. That question is going to be impossible to answer for a while. I sighed and looked over at him.

"Being honest bro... my life is pure shit. I feel completely lost, and I'm on a journey of finding myself and getting back to my roots to find out what kind of music I want to make."

"Did you break up with your girl?" He asked and all I could think about was Jess laying in our bed crying and shaking cold all alone. I snapped back into reality after a minute or two after I realized that Nick asked me a question.

"Y-yeah... I did. It's not helping me feel any more complete. If anything I feel more lost without her." I said looking down trying not to cry. I'm a fucking guy I'm not supposed to cry.

"I'm sorry bro. We're going to go clubbing tonight and help you relax a bit. You need to let loose." He said starting the car and driving away from the airport.

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"J, we need you back at work. No one will listen to Carrisa and me." Carson's voice sounded from her kitchen. I stayed looking out the huge window behind her tv that looks out to the city lights. I've been sitting on her couch for the past week wrapped in a cover Logan bought me, crying my eyes out and trying to sleep the pain and depression away. Carson won't give me more than my one pill of my anxiety and depression meds. I need to call a phycologist and get that fixed. I need a higher dosage. Carson walked in front of me blocking my view, causing me to look up at her.

"Jessica, you can't just lay on my couch till he comes back. You're going to have to do something and stay doing something to keep your mind off him." She said and I know she's right, I just don't feel safe walking around without knowing Logans near.

"I'll try to go to work tomorrow I might not be any help. But I guess I could try." I said getting up off the couch.

"That would be great if you did." She said cracking a smile. I walked over to the bathroom to take a shower so I could feel a little better.

****** 11 Months Later ******

I was in the kitchen making my girlfriend breakfast. Yes. I said it. My girlfriend. I found someone to mask the pain of Jessica. Alexandria is really sweet she's a good person. Even though I met her the night Nick took me clubbing, and she was with another man at the time, she said he was a co-worker and nothing more. Long story short I took her to the hotel and fucked her trying to get over Jessica. I thought she'd be a one night stand but the next day we actually hung out and I thought she was amazing so we decided to go on a couple dates... and here we are.

"Baby?" Her morning voice called from the hallway.

"In the kitchen!" I said loudly, she walked in wearing my shirt and nothing else. God was she tempting. I cut the stove off and wrapped my arms around her while she was looking in the fridge for something to drink. She jumped as I put my arms around her tiny waist.