There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter 26

"Logan..." I said in a whisper because my voice was caught in my throat and my throat was dry.

        He rested his head on my shoulder and didn't say a word. I found myself with my eyes closed taking deep breaths to keep myself calm. I couldn't find the courage to open my eyes nor say anything. When I found the strength to open my eyes I looked down to his hands which were firmly locked around my waist. He still hadn't moved, he has his nose running up and down my neck just taking in the moment. My whole body felt numb, there was no one around. At least no one I could see. I took my right hand and put in on the back on his neck holding him closer to me as I let my first tear fall.

"Jess, I am so incredibly sorry. For everything. Every single thing." He spoke as his voice cracked.

"Logan... i-" I said before he turned me around and kept talking... "No. Jess. Please don't say its okay or anything really. I fucked up. I left you, I broke you. I promised you I'd come back and I never did because I thought you were better off without me. There hasn't been a day where I'm not wondering if you're eating, or getting enough sleep, or if you're safe, how your day went. You're always on my mind. I tried to ignore the fact that you would move on. I kept telling myself you had married someone. Someone who is better than me. Who wouldn't leave you just because they needed to find themselves..." He said before I interuppted

"And did you?" I said fully crying.

"To be honest... I found a part of me that knew what music I wanted to make by myself. But I found a bigger part of me that realized it's nearly impossible to do without you." He said before pulling me into a hug. We stayed like this for what felt like five minutes before he spoke again.

"Jess..." He said cupping my face.

"Yes?"

"Come back to the hotel with me and talk. Please..." He said before kissing my forehead. I sniffled and laughed before I gave my reply.

"What?" Logan asked looking puzzled.

"You know I can't say no to you." I said laughing again wiping my tears. He rubbed my back while he chuckled.

"God, I missed you so much." He spoke softly as he pulled me into a hug. We stood like this for five minutes before I heard an unfamiliar male voice behind Logan.

"Hey bud, the cars here... you ready to go?" The voice said.

"Yeah, we are." He said looking down at me smiling before he kissed my forehead and pulled me towards the car.

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When we got back to the hotel Logan went to shower as I sat looking at my phone sitting on the couch of his suite. After he was done he brought me one of his hoodies and some of his merch shorts so I wouldn't have to stay in my fancy tight clothes. I walked into the bathroom to change, when I walked out Logan was sitting on the couch watching tv. He noticed my presence fairly quickly and called me over to sit on the couch. As I sat down across from him he handed me a glass of wine. My favorite wine to be exact, Strawberry Moscato. After staring at each other for what seemed like minutes he finally spoke...

"Jess..." He said and I just kept looking at him "I'm so so sorry. What I did was wrong. I knew after a week when I couldn't get you out of my mind that I should've gone back to you. Everyone kept telling me it was going to fade away that I'd forget about you..." He stopped for a moment fighting back his tears and the lump that had formed in his throat. "But what I really forgot was who my real friends were, and who was actually there for me. Who still is there for me." He said as he let a tear roll down his face and looked down to the ground.

"Logan, I don't wanna say you don't know how it felt. Because seeing you like this makes me know you feel most of the pain. But there's an entire other level of pain I felt that took me years to come to piece with. The one person I had trusted with my life had left. I up and left what for the most part was home to go with you and then you left.

The one and the only person I felt one-hundred percent safe with, the only reason I didn't cry myself to sleep or had anxiety attacks at night told me he needs his time and space and then left. Do you understand how bad that fucked with me mentally." I said ignoring all the tears that were running down my face like a river. Logan pulled me onto his lap and rubbed my hair to get me to calm as I shook violently in his arms.

"Jessica, I am so so sorry. I know that means absolutely nothing because words can't make up for my actions but I truly am..." he paused for a minute resting his head on mine as I snuggled into his shoulder. We stayed like this for a while before he spoke again.

"We should try to sleep Jess." He whispered in my ear.

"I don't think I can..." I said not wanting to leave his arms.

"We can always try... always" He said as he picked me up and brought me into the bedroom. He laid me down on the side of the bed and started to walk away. When he put me down I whined for him to come back.

"I'll be back in a minute, just cover up and rest." He whispered leaving a kiss on my forehead. I started to drift off a little bit when I saw a little light come from what I'm sure was the bathroom. I groaned at the light that hit the eyes and heard a sleepy Logan mutter "shit" before he cut the light off and shut the door. When he got into the bed I turn around and snuggled back into to him putting my head in his neck. He let out a low laugh and wrapped his arms around me. God I have missed this. This warmth and  love I feel. It's still the same, even though we aren't the same people. The amount of love is same, if not more. I was almost asleep when I heard Logan whisper "Goodnight My Love" and kiss my hair.

A/N: HELLO MY LOVES ❤️❤️ IM SORRY THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE UP YESTERDAY BUT I NAPPED ALL DAY. And when I say all day I literally mean ALL day. 😂 But hey I got the chapter up!! I've gotta work on Fixing Myself it needs a update ASAP👍🏻

I love you all! I told y'all they would reunite eventually. And I'm so excited to continue. I'll probably end this book soon and create a sequel! But I don't know. I'll eat y'all know next chapter which I hope to have by next Thursday. ❤️❤️ much love for all my loves 💗