There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter 24

Tonight I'm really missing Logan. I came back to the apartment feeling a little nostalgic. I looked at the pictures of us we had hanging up on our wall; I remember the moment each picture was taken. The memory behind it. I'm currently looking at the one of me after my first day of therapy after I was shot and Logan told me he'd never leave. I couldn't help but laugh out loud at that. I mean... look where we are now. I went and collapsed on our bed remembering the feeling of his arms wrapped around me as I cried, laughed, or slept. I miss waking up and rolling over and getting a kiss on my forehead. I think it's time for me to move on. I need to find another man. He's probably never coming back. I know he's never coming back.

Two Weeks Later

"YOU THINK YOU WHAT?" Carson yelled at me.

"Carson I'm serious... I've been talking to this guy for two weeks now and I think I like him. I'm going to have to get over Logan somehow." I said feeling sad. I'll never not love him. But I need to do this for myself. I need a distraction.

"Well damn J... I never thought I'd see this day." She said and my heart was breaking because all I want is for Logan to walk into the room and wrap me up and tell me he's never leaving. But that's never going to happen. My phone started ringing and it was John. Carson side-eyed my phone and I walked into the other room and answer it.

"Hey, John! What's up?" I said curiously.

"Hey so I know we haven't really known each other long. But I think you're pretty chill and I'd love to meet up and get some coffee or lunch sometime?" He said nervously.

" Yeah, that actually sounds great. My best friend is actually over right now can I text you later about a day? She'll interrogate me if I'm much longer." I said and laughed and John did as well. I ended the call and walked back out.

"So???" Carson said impatiently.

"Sooooo, we're going to meet up for coffee or lunch sometime," I said smiling like an idiot.

"OMG JESS THAT'S AMAZING." She yelled jumping up and down.

A few days later

"Hey I just got here are you here?" I texted John.

"Yeah just getting out of the car."

Just as I read the text I saw him walk around the corner of the restaurant we were eating at. We decided on lunch because coffee just seemed too short and we wanted to really get to know each other. I noticed John was acting weird when he hugged me. Maybe he's just nervous like I am.

After we ate he asked if we could take a walk through the park and so we set off from the restaurant to the park. We made small talk here and there but most of the walk was silent. When we got to the park he wrapped his arm around me which I didn't mind much considering we're on a date. But his hand started to move lower and lower. He started trying to touch me here and there places I didn't want to be. 

"John? Stop I don't want to go that far." I spoke quietly as my voice started to fade.

"Come on! Jessica we're just having fun." he said pulling me behind a bunch of bushes. He pushed me to the ground and held me down as his forcefully kissed me. I tried kicking and screaming but it didn't help me. He unbuttoned my pants and did things to me I never wanted. I've only had sex voluntarily with two people. Logan and that abusive asshole. I only truly enjoyed Logan. He made me feel special. God why did he have to leave. John continued to "make love" to my body without me trying. I kept trying to scream and kick but it only seemed to turn him on more. He kept going until he was done. When he got done he left me there. He didn't say a word, got himself dressed and left me. Behind bushes in the park alone, cold and raped.

Four Hours Later

"JESS WE ARE GOING TO THE POLICE!" Carson told me assertively.

"Carson... stop. I wanna drop it. It was my fault any-" Carson interrupted

"Jessica if I dare hear the sentence of " it was my fault" come out of your mouth I will fight you." She said.

"Carson, I went to the park with him. I should've known when he was acting weird to leave. It makes me miss Logan so much more." I said as tears started to run down my face.

"J, come here..." she said and I fell into her arms and let the tears flow before she continued "J, I knew you weren't over him. To be completely honest even I miss Logan. You're not alone in this. You just have to prove how strong you are." She said.

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The next morning I woke up with a really bad migraine from all the crying last night. I feel broke. Shattered even. I miss Logan. I miss his hugs, how he wrapped me in his arms, wouldn't let me get out of bed in the morning, or how he would kiss my forehead while he was half asleep. I miss his beautiful lips and his messy bed head. I'd kill to just have him back for one night...

A/N: YALLLLLL WERE BOUT TO GET BACK ON TRACK NEXT CHAPTER!!!! This chapter was really hard to write because the time jumps. The next one will be a huge time gap and I'm going to give little detail to catch up during it. I hope to have the ext chapter next week!!! Also this book is thriving!! almost 700 views!! Thank you guys I honestly thought I was gonna sit at 10 views forever but you guys are just the sweetest. 

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