There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter 21

********* Three Months Later *********

The past few months have gone by blissfully. I won my first dance competition as captain, Logan has been living his life and trying to stay out of the view of the camera for a little bit to figure some things out. He's been slightly distant, but who isn't when they're trying to figure themselves out? I feel like we've hit a really good place in our relationship even though he's being distant, but I understand why he is so that's okay. Some fans have reached out to me recently asking if Logan's okay and where he's gone and I just tell them he's fine. He rarely posts on Instagram anymore. I just got home from work and Logan sitting on the couch with his head in his hands, which isn't good.

"Hey Lo what's wrong?" I asked walking into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water.

"Jess we need to talk about something." He said not picking his head up out of his hands. Whatever this is; it's serious.

"Yeah, whats going on Logan? You sound incredibly stressed." I said sitting down on the other couch from him.

"J-Jess, I-I... w- shit I can't do this..." He said getting up crying and walking out the door.

"Logan! Logan... LOGAN! Wait! Come b-" was all I said before he interrupted.

"Jess, please just let me figure out how to do this without this destroying you too." He said before getting in his car and driving away. What the hell was that supposed to mean? I called one of my friends Carson. She's one of the girls on the dance team; she basically my right-hand woman.

"Hey J! What's up?"

"I'm on my way to your apartment..." I said through my tears that were forming. I ran upstairs to pack a bag just in case I needed to stay with her.

"O-Okay, Jess please drive safe and take deep breaths," She said before I hung up the phone to continue packing my bag. It was raining outside but I didn't care, I was speeding as fast as I could through NYC traffic to get to her apartment. When I did I ran to the elevator and pressed the button to her floor number. I was crying hysterically running to her door. I knocked on it once before she opened the door, throwing my bag to the side and pulling me into her arms.

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"Jess we need to talk about something," I said when she got home. Brent was right Jess is holding me back from going on the adventures I wanted to go on, but I love Jess unconditionally. It's going to shatter her for me to tell her we need to break up. If I'm gone all the time she'll think I'm cheating, and I don't want her to think that because I would never. What if I end up traveling with a girl and I think I'm falling for her. It would be selfish of me to ask Jess to quit her job to travel with me though. She works hard and she's damn good at her job.

"Yeah, whats going on Logan? You sound incredibly stressed." Her voice said softer with a hint of worry. She can feel it coming. I don't want to do it. I don't think I can. I felt tears coming down my face. I took some deep breaths and kept hearing Brents voice saying " You gotta break up with her man... you got to."

"J-Jess, I-I... w- shit I can't do this..." I said before storming out to the car, I don't know where to go but I can't be around her like this.

"Logan! Logan... LOGAN! Wait! Come b-" she said before I almost spilled my guts to her.

"Jess, please just let me figure out how to do this without this destroying you too," I said before cranking the car and driving away. I can't do this she's my rock and my world. I don't know what I'd do without her. I want her to travel with me and help me find out who I am. I've never felt more lost in my life honestly. There is only one place I know to go here.

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"HE SAID WHAT?" Carson practically yelled at me.

"C-Carson please, that's not helping," I said hugging my pillow I brought with me and closing my eyes allowing tars to fall freely.

"I'm sorry J. It's just that doesn't seem like Logan, I feel there's more to this. He wouldn't just break up with you if that's even what he was trying to say. What if a family member died or something and he's just beside himself right now, or it is just something family wise he doesn't know how to handle and he's scared?" She said finding every reason for it not to be him breaking up with me.

"His sister would have texted or called me asking if he was okay. Or he would've told me by now." I said trying to choke back more tears.

"Girl do you want me to talk to him? I don't mean like brutally attack him about it but just ask him if he's okay?" She asked.

"No...yes... I-I don't know." I said breaking back down.

"Oh, honey..." She said rubbing my back trying to comfort me. Half an hour later I passed out on Carson's couch. I heard Carson whispering, I think; It could be her in my dream but I don't know.

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There was a soft knock at my apartment door and I was wondering who it could've been at 11 at night. Jessica was passed out on my couch 30 minutes ago from all of her crying. I honestly don't know whats gotten into Logan but it just doesn't seem right. I sleepily over to the door and opened it up just a little so I could see who it was.

"Logan, what the hell are you doing here?" I asked the presence of a very stressed and depressed Logan. Never in my life have I seen someone more upset and tired in my entire life.

"So Jess isn't here?" He voiced with full concern. I grabbed my lanyard with my apartment key and pushed him back a little bit and shut the door.

"She is why?" I said waking up realizing I'm probably about to let him have all of my anger.

"S-She wasn't home when I got back, and her favorite pillow was gone along with her bag and some clothes. Carson, I... I think I fucked up and I... I just want my Jess back in my arms. I can't believe I almost let Brent brainwash me." He said before he leaned his head to the wall on the outside of my apartment and started crying. I have never seen a man cry like this in my life either.

"Logan, you haven't lost her. She just worried, confused, and stressed herself. What do you mean Brent tried to brainwash you? And what were you try to tell her earlier?" I asked with my interrogation face on. "What whoa whoa whoa before you try to explain anything we need to go to the conference room downstairs so we don't wake anybody up," I said dragging him to the elevator. Once we got to the conference room I cut on the Keurig to make us some coffee. "Okay, now explain," I said sitting in the office chair across from him.

"Okay, so..."

A/N: LOL cliffhanger!!!! You are all so welcome! There will be a second part to this chapter! I don't know if I want to torture you guys and wait till Monday... or post it tomorrow if I get it wrote.

Anywaysssssss... how is everyone doing? I hope you're all well. I'm going out of town this weekend so Secretly Wild might be delayed till Monday depending on how much service and wifi I can harvest. Lol... As always make sure you check out the other two book! I love you guys!!! See you soon!