There's A Hope Waiting In The Dark

Chapter 25

5 Years later...

For the past five years I've been out trying to find myself. Who I want to be and what kind of music I wanted to make and I'm getting ready to drop my first solo album. I left the love of my life six years ago. Jessica's probably already moved on, and married to some guy who isn't going to leave. I've been in three abusive relationships but you'll hear about that through the music.

I'm constantly getting tweets about how excited my fans are for the album. I'm extremely nervous. Even though the album sounds how I want it to, I'm terrified the fans won't like the vibes and they won't like me anymore.

Two years ago I opened Instagram for the first time in years and saw Jessica went to Kendall and Dustin's first concert as Heffron Drive. They looked like they had a great time and Mica and Jessica look like best friends. She also has pictures posted with Carlos and Alexa from when they moved to Maui. And of course James's first tour with his first album. She promised us all the night of the dinner she would be there for all our solo careers and would be at all our first concerts. With everything that's gone down between us I feel like that won't happen with me. I waited too long. Way too long. I'm currently on my flight to Mexico and it's about to land.

My first concert of my spring tour is in Mexico because I love the energy and I love the fans here. Of course every other place has a lot of energy and stuff but Mexico just has this vibe I love. It's also Cinco De Mayo and.... tacos and tequila, tacos and tequila! ( lol only stans will get that reference )

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"How do you think he's going to react?" Carson asked me. We flew all the way from NYC to Mexico for Logan's first concert. I'm not gonna lie when I say I'm sad he never came back. But I'm extremely excited for the music. The album is beautiful I can already tell. I can't wait to hear the studio version of "Take It Out On Me".

"I think he's going to be shocked. I just hope he's not mad." I said shrugging. Every time I think of Logan personally and not as an artist I get depressed. I'm sad he never came back for me. But I did tell him to take all the time he needed.

••••The Next Day••••

"Logan man you ready for M&G?" My manager asked.

"Yeah just give me a second." I said walking into the bathroom in my dressing room and looking at myself in the mirror. I kept looking at myself telling myself she'll be here. She said she would. My manager called my name again and I walked out ready to meet my incredible fans.
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"Carson... what if he doesn't remember me? It's been so long." I said pacing the hotel room like a madman.

"J, call the hell down. I'm pretty sure Logan's going to remember you. You're a huge part of his life." She said watching me pace. "Now let's go before we're late."

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I've been letting fans for the past two hours I just got back to the dressing room to make sure I'm ready and warmed up for the set. I'm even more pumped now. The fans here are just so crazy, but in a good way crazy. They give me so much energy and push me through everything.

"Hey bud you ready to go?" My buddy and guitarist Kyle asked me.

"Yeah... just give me a minute to go to the bathroom." I said as a sudden reminder that I didn't see the love of my life... I didn't see my Jess.

••••••• Two Hours Later •••••••
"Logan that was lit!!!!" One of my friends told me.

"It really was... I love being back on tour." I said as I wiped my face with a wet cloth. I miss performing and I seen Carson's super bleached blonde hair out in the crowd. So I know Jess is here. I sent security out to find them after the show.

"Ready to head back to the hotel."

"Nah man I'm gonna take a chill here and soak it all in." I said hoping he wouldn't stay. I mean don't get me wrong I love my buds but I really need to talk to Jess alone.

About five minutes after he leaves a security guard brings me Carson and asks if bags the right person. And I said yes and asked her where Jess is...

"L-Logan idk you he basically took me away from her." She said a little shocked and I sent the security guard to go get Jess. Carson's dm I made small talk before the security guard came back and told me jess was in the hang out area. Carson prepped me to talk to her the best she could before I slowly made my way to my love.

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"Jess that concert was fucking amazing... the album is so fucking good." Carson told me as she was dragging me through the crowd to leave.

"I know... I'm so proud of him. I wish we wouldn't got meet and greet so I could talk to him." I said letting the sadness come back.

"It's alright you can always DM him on insta or something..." She said as she kept pulling my through the crowd. We suddenly stopped when we got to a gate I didn't remember coming through the first time. Carson went to the port-a-potty by it and I got lost again in the crowd but tried to stay by the fence. Great. I lost Carson and I have no damn clue where I'm at. I start heading the direction everyone else is so I can call Carson and tell her where I am. I was walking for about five minutes before a security guard stopped me and told me to follow him that my friend was looking for me. Thank god he spoke English because my Spanish is god awful.

We get back to the same fence Carson left me at except this time we walk around it to what looks like a backstage area. Knowing though it's probably security's location for lost people when they lose they're friends. They tell me to sit in a chair while they go find Carson saying she went back to the bathroom to throw up? Jesus she did have a little much to drink but damn Carson doesn't vomit. I wait another 10 minutes and I'm done waiting I'm basically alone except for the security guard in the corner where we came by and he's not even in sight. I stand up to leave and I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I immediately relax as I know who's arms they are. The only arms that can hold me and comfort me. Those arms I've cried almost every night for.

"Logan..." I said in a whisper because my voice was caught in my throat and my throat was dry.

A/N: GUYSSS HELLO SURPRISE!!!! DO YOU guys love me again!!!! I wanna get this book back on track then work on Fixing Myself. I plan on working on this book in every minute of my free time ( which is like a total 20 minutes spread across 7 days lolll ) 

I love you guys and thank you so so much for almost 700 reads!!! I honestly planned for this book to be at 10 reads still and for me to only be at chapter 6 still but you guys are a dream come true! I hope to see you guys very very soon ❤️❤️❤️❤️