hazel eyed boy [noah schnapp]

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a/n: yay jack said he would stop vaping im real happy, i thought he would become one of those celebs for a second tbh :(

TRIGGER WARNING - ABUSE, VERBAL MANIPULATION AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS (scroll to bottom bold part for summary of chapter if sensitive)

y/n pov:

i slowly crawled out of my room to the top of the staircase. and there he was. tony (yes teotfw), my mom's abusive former partner. he is not my dad, not after the things he's done to us. he looked up, and i rolled behind the wall, breathing heavily. how was he here? why? "dear, come down would you? someone's here to see you" my mom called. i reluctantly stood up and revealed myself. i was doing this for my mom. i knew if i left her alone with him she would end up doing shit.

i got to the bottom of the staircase. my mom was frozen, like she was hypnotized. tony had been abusing us for around a year before we finally escaped. why did it take so long? because my mom always seemed to be in some trance around him, as if he could control her. but one day, he did something so horrible, so unforgivable to me, she snapped out of it for long enough for us to move here. i was kind of sad because my school was my safe place, and i would have to restart. now the problem was back, and i loved it here, i didnt want to move! 

"come closer, dear" i was snapped out of my thoughts. tony pulled me to him and examined me up and down. "you've grown a lot bigger" he whispered and i trembled. dear was what he called me whenever he would abuse me.

flashback

"dear, come here" i ignored him. he came up to me and started patting my back. tears formed in my eyes as i looked at my mom. she was asleep on the couch, having finished several wine bottles. "what do you want" i asked him. "i want you" he whispered in my ear and walked away. i ran up to my bedroom and slammed the door. tears spilled out of my eyes. i walked into the bathroom and pulled out a razor from a cupboard. i was about to do it, but remembered my mom needed me. so i put it down.

we moved a week later, after something horrible happened to me.

end of flashback

"your father is going to be staying here" my mom told you. "what? for how long?" i had learnt to act as if this was no big deal. "im not sure" "why do you ask? do you not want me to stay?" he crouched down to my eye level, his alcohol scented breath hitting my face. i gagged and narrowed my eyes. i wasn't going to back away anymore. "he's not my father. he's the abusive person that my mother is controlled by" i suddenly felt a sharp pain in your right cheek and a loud smack. tony had slapped me. i stomped up the stairs. "f uck you" and i slammed the door.

i collapsed once the door closed. i had waited for so long for my mother to finally come to her senses, the amount of patience i needed to have, was all wasted. he was back, and there was nothing i could do.

next day

i left for school really early, before my mom and tony woke up. tony slept on the couch, so i had to sneak past him quietly, grabbing an apple from the table. "at least my mom had enough sense to make him sleep downstairs" i thought.

it was quite peaceful outside at this time. i relaxed immediately, closed my eyes and inhaled through my mouth. i noticed things i never noticed before. the way the birds chirped and whistled in harmony, the sound the dead leaves made as they scattered across the sidewalk, the feeling of the wind blowing against my hair, leaving it messy.

i stopped to sit down on a bench and took my phone out.

bestiesss

y/n: yoyoyo

maddie: we the masters

lilia: please,, no

y/n: i feel like kms

i hate life

lilia: wAit no you can't 

maddie: facetime?

maddie wants to facetime...

accept

lilia joins facetime

y/n: hey guys *sniffles*

m: what's wrong babe?

l: aw no what is it?

y/n: it's tony

m: that f Ucking asshole, i swear to god i will fight him

l: we'll be here whenever you need us. can't you just report him to the police?

y/n: no.. he got a fake id once he got out of jail, no proof it's fake, and my mom isn't herself around him

l: oh,, you can run away

y/n: no, it's not worth it.. i've learnt to cope with his daily actions, it's just sometimes he gets on my nerve. and no way im leaving my helpless mom with that..monster. also, i really like my friends here, i don't want to restart after just starting, and without an explanation.

m: ohmygod, you're in an impossible situation

y/n: im fine, also i gotta get to school, talk to you guys later.

y/n left facetime 

i walked to school,fighting the emotion inside of me. at our old place, i used to use the internet to distract myself, and found out that keeping all my emotions hidden would help my current situation.

and when i was just starting to open up again, to feel normal again...he comes back into my life.

a/n well that was real dramatic and i was on the verge of tears writing that first part im so sorry